I was murdered... After I "blacked out" or died, I remember waking up in a gray, metallic looking room with garish, hospital-like light coming from everywhere. I was lying on something like a steel slab and was surrounded by stereotypical grey aliens... I remember putting up a strong fight, kicking, biting, throwing punches at everything, then blacking out again. The next thing I remember is being in a toddler's body and being carried by human looking entities. They were tall, blonde and very beautiful. I can only describe them as looking like the drawings people have made of Nordic aliens? When I first saw Game of Thrones I noticed they resembled the Targaryens. However, I was still afraid and knew intuitively that this was a disguise and these were the same beings. They seemed agitated with me, like I had caused problems, and were very stoic and quiet. I then remember being shown a panoramic view of the earth, like something you'd see at NASA's website. The very next thing I knew, someone was stuffing me into a frilly little yellow dress and white booties. I know that this was a memory from early infancy. I asked my mother how I was dressed when I was brought home from the hospital. She told me I was dressed in a lacy yellow dress and matching yellow and white booties that someone in my father's family had knitted for me before I was born. There is no way I could have known this as there weren't any photos taken of me that day (or none to my knowledge) and I was never told by anyone what I was wearing. -- from Email
Prior to birth, everything was just a very bright white energy (including me) just flying around seemingly random, but at the same time obviously not random. There were no feelings. There were no emotions. There was only an indescribable contentment. So much so that any emotion would very likely be unwelcome. I just "was". I was completely content flying around wherever I wanted to. I could go anywhere I wanted seemingly almost instantly as if there were very little travel time involved. I have "clips" of memories going to various places.
Then suddenly I was drawn to a much "stronger" conscious energy than I was. I had not decided that I wanted to go to her. I didn't even know of her existence up to that point. I had no desire whatsoever to meet the White Lady and I certainly did not want to go anywhere else other than right where I was, in control of my own actions and desires. I call her the "White Lady" because she was the most peaceful, inviting energy I'd ever encountered (to my knowledge). And she just "seemed" feminine. Communication was never done verbally. I wouldn't even call it telepathy. We just "knew" what each other was "saying". Best I can describe it. She told me I was about to come here. I was perfectly content where I was and did NOT want to come here nor anywhere else for that matter. I protested, but I couldn't move.
Her energy then "touched" mine and I perceived her "hushing" me. Then I started falling almost like being pushed off a cliff. The indescribably beautiful place started fading further and faster away from me. Then I was in what seemed to be a field of shooting stars passing by me extremely fast. It was a long and frightening fall.
Then I was in the delivery room. Human. In pain and livid for having been forced to be here against my will. I remember the doctor holding me up high by my legs and slapping my behind. That only made me angrier. My mother told me that I was a breech baby and I came into this world feet first.
I tell people I didn't want to come here and they just give me a funny look. I KNOW that everything is interconnected at a quark level at least. Living AND inanimate non-living things. Everything affects everything else whether you perceive it or not. Even air. I'm not religious, atheist nor any other such label because what I'm talking about has zero to do with that. I don't "believe" nor have "faith" in anything. I just "know". I "remember". I was "there". -- Tony
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I didn't go into the light per se. I was drawn to it against my will and once I was where she wanted me to be, I was immobilized. She definitely had a feminine energy. Her energy (it could be light, but I've always called it energy) was mostly all I could see because we were so close. Up until that point I had no conception that I was "powerful" or anything like that. Her ability to do what she had just done to me instantly gave me the concept of power differences. I could not move any longer under my free will. I didn't feel any malevolence from her, only pure love. There was no life review or any questions about how much I had learned about anything. She just said "You're going there." (Earth)...
I was just simply out there doing what we do, being perfectly content, and then I was drawn against my will to the White Lady. When I say "against my will" I mean that I did not decide that I wanted to go to her. And once the process was started to go to her, I could not stop it. That sort of thing had never happened to me before then. Once I was with her we started communication, mostly one-sided with her telling me where I was going (here). I clearly remember telling her that I definitely did NOT want to come here. I don't remember why I felt that way. Maybe I already knew what was going to be here. Maybe I had been here before then? All I know is I didn't want to come here. Then the "fall". I was completely out of control until I was "born" in the delivery room." -- Tony
Not exactly a pre-birth memory but an early life memory I received:
I have one early memory: I remember rather a full consciousness viewing my surroundings from a baby's body. It felt as though I was inside a "china doll" looking outward. The big memory/feeling though...was one of complete despair. I am 60 years old now, and still recall the feeling of defeat, trickery and disillusionment at "once again" being here. I felt as though I had been tricked into being here. I felt this as I watched a scene (which turned out to be exactly where I was as a baby-my crib at a window) of a woman pulling water out of a well. I felt such despair at being here...I then felt as though a shade was drawn upon me, and I do not recall much more from my early childhood. I have however, thanks be to omnipotence, always remembered this event.
"At the end of all this I begged the powers to let me stay in the heavenly land. I told them I had been well behaved all those years and hadn't done anything wrong. They acknowledged this but stated that the people who stayed there permanently had had exemplary lives for their previous life but that I hadn't really! I knew then that they wanted me to have another life on earth. At this point I remembered that I had had many previous lives and felt dismayed I would have to have another one and be separated from my heavenly friends. Again I begged them and the voice asked whether or not I too wanted to have an exemplary last life. At this point I replied that I didn't particularly!!!! There was a moment of silence where I reflected a little and saw that another life was the most noble choice and that really there wasn't much choice anyway!" "My next realisation however was that I would lose my memory. I clearly remembering saying out aloud ' you're going to swipe my memory aren't you? At this point there was a moment of silence which I took as a yes before I remember my memory slipping away as a dream memory does upon waking..."
Before Day One: Henrik's Pre-Birth Memory Account
I found myself in a place with but what I call guides and these guides were directing me kind of to earth and it seemed like it was a mission of some kind and these beings one can interpret them as angels and this is pretty much what I used to believe in to some degree.
I still might believe that it seemed like they were doing the work of some type of higher power. Certainly they were kind of just following orders like it seemed like they had a limited amount that they could do. Maybe to make me more comfortable or to affect my life like maybe I had a certain amount of choices that were in their control to accept or deny, something like that. But it felt like there was a higher power somewhere.
In the very first part of this memory involves me being in a much larger space like a palace or something like that. I had that kind of vibe. It was like a very regal almost sort of energy to it. And there were in my memory -- I mean. I don't know if this is a hundred percent accurate -- but I believe that it was like a palace with pillars and all kinds of fancy decoration there and everything. But it was inhabited by like more energy beings and I was one of these energy beings. And in this particular place we had no specific form.... like we were more like balls of energy and we were waiting in this huge queue.... like you know in a bank or in an airport or something when you're waiting to see the clerk and it's the busiest hour of the day... think of that but times like a hundred or a thousand or something like it was just a huge huge queue like you know how it goes with these roped off areas and you have to go back and forth and eventually your turn comes and so my turn neared I felt a greater and greater sense of anxiety and anticipation about where I was going to go I kind of knew what was coming and there was like a doorway that I had to step through and I don't remember exactly what this doorway looked like, but I've recreated all this actually in an animation. I've given it like my best shot of showing at least the feeling of what it was like and the basic sequence of the events of everything but it's not really a hundred percent accurate. it actually looks a little bit cheesy to me in retrospect....
I recalled was feeling of being in this line and then I recalled being in the other space looking at the earth or I wasn't looking at the earth right away but it appeared pretty soon like these beings came into the room with me and what I would call the guides. They were larger than I was they looked like they were made out of pure energy or something. That's another thing I'll get to in a moment but it was like they directed the view screen or they configured it somehow so that the earth came into view. And when I saw the earth, I was incredibly anxious even more so than I had been when I was waiting in line. And I knew at that moment that I didn't want to go. I was absolutely adamant that I would not go and I was panicking. I was losing it. And so these guide beings they started wondering what's wrong with this kid or something. I don't know if they were taking pity or what, but they became very kind of like disconcerted by my reaction and so they went and talked amongst talked among themselves in the corner or off somewhere a little bit out of my ear shot maybe if you could call it that because yeah it was different and I don't know how much I remember about it being like psychic um telepathic communication...
but it felt like they were kind of talking amongst themselves and I wasn't really privy to everything that they were saying it was like they had to talk for a little while and um I got a sense that they were like yeah what are we gonna do here he doesn't want to go is there something that we could do to make him feel better or convince him to go or bla bla bla it was that type of vibe to it and I knew that they were doing that.
And so the main guide which was he was like more blue energy or he had like a blue aura to him he came back and gave me the news or the verdict or whatever the conclusion that they had come to so before I get to this conclusion. I'll talk a little bit about what I'm saying about what they looked like it could vary a little bit and I thought about why this would be this is true of the earth too when you looked at anything in this place it was like it had material form yet at the same time they had this energy aspect to it it felt like it was much more energetic than a regular matter or what I've come to think is that when we have human highs we are seeing a very limited portion of the light spectrum which is to say the electromagnetic spectrum we see a very limited frequency range with our eyes...
when it comes to the guides and when I dream about the guides they take on many different appearances but there were two specific ways that I perceived these guides in my memory and that was number one they seemed like they were either completely light-colored light sparkling of varying colors or they seemed more solid and humanoid either way they were humanoid like they had handsome yeah I don't know if I saw like faces specifically when they were more in the clear light form but at any rate they had the human shape and this is how I depicted them in my animated video but they could also appear as something more akin to like aliens and so that had me perplexed for a while but I've really been thinking about that over time and I think that it's more of a case where you beings can take on different appearances...
I've tried looking for pictures of Earth to depict what I saw a via Google through NASA pictures and stuff like that and nothing came close really some more than others like pictures of the earth that night sometimes when they have like all the colors of Earth and they kind of overlay the grid of the the cities that can look a little more like the kind of energy that I perceived but still not quite not quite it and maybe the closest thing that you could conceptualize would be like a hologram or something...
I was seeing the full spectrum of the energy the life that existed on earth all the beauty and I guess you could say the beauty and the terror and everything. All the different energies were there and maybe that was why I was so scared. I could see the full spectrum not only visually, but I could perceive all of its emotional energy as well.
I had a lot of fear associated with mine. I was very afraid of coming to earth. I seemed to know what was going to happen when I went to earth. At any rate, I knew that it was a place that many bad things happen and there's a lot of loneliness and we're disconnected from once again the family and this feeling of being a large loving family. And sometimes I've said over the years that I didn't feel that much love there and I didn't feel that much love from these guides -- not all the time anyway and maybe that was because I was just so overwhelmed by anxiety but I knew that there was a reason why I didn't want to go to earth and that was because I much preferred being where I was.
So I didn't want to go and they they did their little huddled in the corner, their little powwow, and they came to this conclusion. And I think it was that they offered me some kind of compromise, something to make me more comfortable. And maybe that was that they were going to send me to a specific family because I don't remember having a choice of which family, which parents I would be born to. It seemed like that was chosen for me for some reason. And maybe it was some kind of karmic thing, I don't know. But something was compromised there and so I think this is something that people often say...
it's a big thing if they let you remember. That's gonna affect a whole lot in your life and it could very well change the course of your life so it's... I'm sure it's not something that they would take lightly in that case. So I think they allowed me that and I agreed to it apparently. I was like okay. It's not like I had much of a choice seem to me because what we often hear is that we're told we don't have to go if we don't want to, but to me it felt like I had no choice really and maybe that was the case for me. Maybe I did have no choice because of something I had done in my past life like I needed to kind of correct it or I needed to grow and learn to some degree so now from that point I was just sent on my way and I don't remember what that was.
As far as the life planning goes, I didn't get a whole lot of that. I remember things were told to me like there was a part of my memory. When I first recalled it, the guides told me many things that were going to happen. I think they gave me some encouragement and maybe they inserted somewhere into my subconsciousness things that I would need to prepare for just have the knowledge that certain things a certain chain of events might unfold and then it was taken away again like on a conscious level. After that first recall, many of these aspects just faded away and others stayed there like the most basic ones which I'm sharing with you now. But I feel like there was something very wonderful that they told me.
And then they also did something just before they sent me on my way. I felt like they were blessing me or something... like you know when you're in a church and you have a whole bunch of people praying over you. That is kind of what it felt like, but at the same time, I don't know if it was a prayer exactly or if they were they were doing some kind of ritual or something to help me remember...
I don't remember seeing my whole life or anything but once again that was taken away. In other people, some people claim that they remember everything that they were told about what would happen in their life work. Sometimes they say that they were able to choose their life and choose their parents and stuff. So there are variations on this theme, but it's all basically the same narrative which is that we meet guides and we are told by these guides that we have to go to earth. Some people feel very anxious about it and others feel very excited like they're like gung-ho for this mission... like maybe some of them have even failed at it before and they're excited for the chance to try out again.
PBE of Deus Vult channel on YouTube
Pre-Birth Memories | Earth Was A Black Mass of Pure Evil | Matrix Reincarnation Soul Trap Commentary https://youtu.be/vgAyA21ABDc?t=455
Source Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zrvw5_pLYP4
"Well, I decided to make this video finally about the pre-birth experience and I'm doing it because I'm sitting in traffic and I'm bored so I don't even know where to start honestly but watching these other videos on the pre-birth experience is one of the main reasons why I'm making this video. I just feel like the story does need to get out. I feel like the whole reason why I've had this experience is to tell people about it so that's what I'm doing. It's insane to to hear other people talk about it because all of our experiences are pretty much exactly the same....well this is how it started for me. Basically, I started off and I was like I'd want to say like a ball of energy and I was I was floating around and I was experiencing pure bliss. It is the best feeling you can ever imagine. You can describe it in two words. I was basically receiving knowledge constantly about everything. I understood everything. I was so smart yet so curious at the same time.
One thing I did not hear people mention is that I had a body and then I didn't at the same time. I was like a baby, a teenager and an elderly person all at the same time. I was again I was a young baby I was a teenager and an elderly person. But I didn't see my hands or anything like that. I felt like I was all those ages at one time. I know that's very weird but that's what I felt
and I was just kind of floating around just flying around just feeling so good and then I felt something like calling me over. Behind me, like "turn around, fly over here". I was being beckoned. Somebody was talking to me telepathically. I turned around and I saw three beings, three of them. I saw it was a woman's womanly figure in two males standing next to her side-by-side. I couldn't really see their faces but they were just wearing I would want to say white robes and couldn't see her face it was like just light but I could see her hair she was a brunette
and they were they were telling me to come down and instantly I knew what was happening. I knew that they were going to send me here and I did not want to come at all. I did not want to be here. I was like "nope". I remember fighting it really bad like "no I don't want to go. I don't want to go". And I was flying around a little more just like you know when you're trying to tell your kid to go clean their room and they're just like they're trying to have fun before they go. That's what I was doing. It was like "no no no no no. I do not want to go to this place". And as I
was doing that I was kind of looking over to where I was gonna go: earth. And, man, that was the first moment of fear that that came over me. I was scared because I knew this place was going to be bad. I didn't want to be here for sure. Compared to that I didn't want to be here and I can I was fighting it and it got to the point where I was gonna go. I had no choice and they were letting me know that "you're gonna be okay. you're gonna be okay. you know just just come on down." And before I went down again, I turned around and I saw them and had looked and it was a pool of water and covering it was like a big awning like old -- I'd want to say there were like columns, white columns, you know, like old like Greek columns you know, they're real defined and they were just beautiful and it was just covering this pool. Aand they were standing by the water and I did not want to go into that water... knew what that meant so they beckoned me over and at this point I was, again, I was fighting it. I had no choice. I was being pulled into the water and I got to the water and I was petrified. I knew what was gonna happen. They were gonna send me down. I didn't want to go and I kept asking them, "please, if I'm gonna go, can you please let me remember this place? I want to remember. I want to
remember. And they kept reassuring me and they allowed me to remember. They allowed me to remember this place and as I got that confirmation that they were to allow me to remember, I was okay with going and you know as I was in that water I know for a fact they gave me a choice as to what life I want to live. I could have... I could have been rich, famous and had it really easy, but my memory of heaven would have been gone basically. I had to live a more difficult life here. To remember that place that was the deal and I wanted that deal because I wanted to remember. It was that important to me. The short amount of time that I'd be here, you know, that it's totally worth it to remember a place like this because I have this understanding now and,
you know, it's priceless because I know for a fact that when we pass on, there is an afterlife and there is a heaven because I've been there and I remember without a doubt in my mind, without a doubt and man those people that were standing by the water -- the woman and the two beings that were speaking to me -- the love that you feel for these people is again something that you cannot put into words. You think you love your parents. You think you love your children, if you have them, and it's nothing compared to the love that you feel when you're up there at all you cannot compare it if to the point where I actually missed them I miss them very very much I think about him all the time. I think about this situation all the time. It's something that never leaves me and I cannot wait to go back. I don't know what my purpose here is on planet Earth but like I just I can't wait to go back. That's the only thing I could say about that.
and so again I got into the pool and I was scared. I was terrified because I knew I remember looking at the place that I was gonna go to earth and it is ugly. It was just... I remember it looking like a black bubbling mass of just pure evil and I was petrified. I just knew this was gonna be tough. I knew this place is gonna be dark and I knew this place needed work and I just knew I
didn't want to go. I didn't want to go.
Yeah, here I am but I got in the water. I chose my life. I chose my mom. I do know that. I chose the family I wanted. I chose the body. I chose how I wanted to look. I chose a lot of things. there's a lot of things that you get to choose before you come here. I don't know if we all chose these things, I really don't, but I remember choosing myself. got in the water and I remember being sucked down. At this point I was gone. I remember being sucked down into this like tube and the fear came over me right then and there. When I started getting sucked down into this tube and as the further I went down, the memories started to fade away of that place, of heaven. It started to go away slowly and I remember just like being really tired. I could hardly keep my eyes open now... just like a roller coaster just being sucked down really really fast and one of the last things I remember from this whole entire memory is the best way to describe... I remember a vision you know when you close your eyes and you look at a light or maybe even the Sun and you can see the flesh, the flesh colour. I remember seeing that and I was I'll say now I know I was inside the womb and I felt claustrophobic. I felt it. was I was inside of a body now and it was extremely uncomfortable. I felt like I was suffocating. I had to get out. I was like remember just like I'm just pushing against the wall, whatever, you know, the womb. I was pushing and pushing and that is the last thing I remember from that."
"I chose my mom. I didn't want to be here, so I wanted to soften the blow by remembering what I was leaving. I too was flying down at amazing speeds. I turned my body to fly down on my back so I wouldn't miss a millisecond of what I was leaving. When I got into my baby body in my mom, a voice said, "You can't have that (the memories)." I thought, "Oh no, I just got here & I already have something to answer for."
I turned this place down twice before Jesus asked me. I still told him no. I figured, "He asked me and I'm saying NO." He said, "Well, you don't have to go if you don't want to, but I'd like it if you did." I couldn't say no to Him, so here I am. I was shown my pitiful life AFTER I agreed to go, so I couldn't change it. There's so much more..." -- Chomka
Helen Wambach book, Life Before Life, 1979
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"The next report also was of someone who resisted the process of living another lifetime. "I didn't choose to be born, and I thought when you asked that question, 'Oh no, not again -- I'm so comfortable here' (Wherever here might be!) I did have help in choosing. Two counselors showed me how my mother would want me, and my mother-to-be wanted me so much. She would guard and love me so it would all be okay. I felt they were reassuring me. My feeling about the prospect of being born was I felt I had served well in my last life and I wanted a rest, and felt it was too soon to return, because it would be rather traumatic."
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"I think I was reluctantly talked into being born. A wise man whom I respected, obeyed and loved helped convince me it would be good for me to be born now. "
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Yes, I chose to be born but it was in panic. It was not a decision made at leisure. When you asked if anyone helped me choose, I was aware of guides that seemed to be large light beams, guiding me ont to be born now-- but I was determined. My feelings about the prospects of living the coming lifetime were that I wanted it and I knew my mother wasn't ready and this family wasn't right. But I had things to do and three karmc trips to complete."
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"Yes, I chose to be born, and there seemed to be a board or committee-- a group of authorities to help me choose. "
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Yes, it was a difficult decision. There was a group helping me choose. They listened to what I had planned and made some suggestions. My feeling about living the coming lifetime was that I was not happy, but I knew what I was going to do was important enough to push aside my feelings of not wanting to be confined to a physical world."
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"When you asked if I chose to be born I didn't want to, but was convinced by a counselor that I needed help with enlightenment."
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"I don't really know if I chose to be born, I was aware that there were shadowy figures around me helping, but it was all very unclear."
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My birth canal experience started with a strong feeling that somehow 'they' tricked me. They induced the labor and I wasn't ready yet. My feelings after birth were 'Oh well here i am. I'll give it another go.'... it wasn't a very pleasant introduction to the world."
From the book "Cosmic Cradle, Revised Edition: Spiritual Dimensions of Life before Birth" by Elizabeth M. Carman, Neil J. Carman, Bernie S. Siegel:
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"Our life plan is designed prior to birth." -- Cosmic Cradle
" Self-aware of their true blissful nature: the physical body is a garment, a cage, shell, a temporary housing for the Soul." -- Cosmic Cradle
"Spirit guides, angels, divine planners, Great Being, Creator: a Higher Being tells them they are going on a journey and will return Home one day. Guides assist in pre-birth planning and escort them to their mother’s womb." -- Cosmic Cradle
"Awareness in fetus: once the Soul connects with the fetus in the womb, most Souls feel a loss of freedom, constricted awareness, a feeling of being in a cage." -- Cosmic Cradle
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Falling to Earth from the Pure Light
" Summer remembers the inner world of Light, the Cosmic Cradle: “My memory goes back to a place of pure light, intermittently between lives. My individuality was barely audible. That is the best way I can describe it. All my senses became unified. Everything was one. Still, I had a subtle feeling of ‘my’-ness, identity, ego, or individuality. I felt the presence of God, of not being totally one with God, but being in God’s womb, so to speak. “I was aware of other Souls close by. It is hard to explain because there was no space and time, only the present moment and other Souls coming toward and going away from me. When the time came to establish my next life, I traveled through a tunnel filled with lights representing the laws of nature and different people. I had an ongoing dialogue with an angel, God, an aspect of God, or Saint Peter. It is hard to say exactly who he was. I desired to achieve the maximum in terms of clearing up karma and reaching enlightenment. We discussed what I needed and how to achieve my purpose with certain people.
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Divine Planner
“The divine planner added more details. ‘This man has a choice, yet most likely he will choose the path of drug abuse.’ I saw a vision of a man sitting on the ground, with folded knees, his head resting on his knees and his arms wrapped around his legs. “Next the divine planner asked, ‘Do you want this man to physically harm you?’ I said, ‘No way.’ He explained, ‘You learn the divine lessons quicker when these things occur.’ I said, ‘I don’t want the guy to hit me.’ (My husband has never physically abused me. For the personality he has played [a drug addict], that is amazing. I have pushed his buttons; fortunately, it is not in the Divine Plan for him to hit me.) “I resisted the next choice: ‘Choose an injury.’ I replied, ‘I don’t want to get hurt. Forget it. I’m not choosing an injury.’ The divine planner told me, ‘You will learn from these things.’ I finally agreed, ‘Okay, my hand.’ He was disappointed that I picked something minor, but made the entry into his ‘computer.’ “I broke my hand five years ago.... The injury was part of the Divine Plan."
Formless Form Spirit Guide
A divine planner helped Elizabeth decide the next course of action: “A Formless Form counseled me about my options... My decision was based on the spiritual growth and fulfillment I needed and for setting the foundation to become whatever I will become in this world or something spiritual later on. The decision was one hundred percent mine. I had my own idea of what I wanted to become. And it was crucial that this set of parents raise me.”
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Chose To Be A Boy
I remember before I came into the womb. Everything was dark. I felt empty. I was waiting for something to direct me. Then my consciousness suddenly clicked on. I became aware that I existed. A thought, from seemingly nowhere, asked, ‘What do you want to be?’ Those exact words entered my mind. I knew the answer: ‘I want to be a boy.’ I instantly left that dark space and came into light. “My pre-birth memory has stuck with me. I can differentiate it from memories of everything I’ve gone through in my body. This happened before I became ‘me.’ "
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Cosmic Contract with Strings Attached
My Guide explained that choice involved a packaged deal—it included my mother and brother and karma to be worked out with these people.
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Looking-Glass Portal & Tested Like Job
Souls were pointing down to Earth and selecting parents. “I knew who the directors were by their attitude and actions. My Guide stood on my right and held me by the arm. He had superiority over me. I felt like a student, and he was a full-fledged teacher. What is so amazing is that I visualized that I would return to this place in the hereafter. We go to Earth as children. Before that we are mature spiritual beings up there. When I looked down, I was given a choice of three couples having intercourse...
“I asked, ‘If I take this couple, my reward will be equally as great, right?’ He said, ‘Yes, except you will have a hard time, and it will be frustrating to pass God’s test. Part of your trial will be to fall short of achieving what you are really capable of. With the other two couples, you will just about have it made. Decide on the couple you want.’ I answered, ‘The couple with the greatest trials.’ He asked, ‘Are you sure?’ I said, ‘Yes.’ “I had no special feelings toward the wealth of each of the couples. We are born on Earth for Soul growth. It is a matter of choosing what degree of salvation we want. I desired to shoot for the top, maximum salvation. I wanted to prove myself. “As soon as I chose my parents, I entered a huge, round tunnel. I flew down that tube at a terrific speed. Lights coming from a narrow band flashed by. The lights wrapped all through that tube, like a red stripe on a peppermint candy cane. The light circle never broke. It was dark except for the band of light...
Thirty years later, in the 1990s, Rennie underwent nine surgical procedures over a two-year battle with cancer. During the first cancer surgery, he had an NDE. “My heart stopped for four minutes. I floated out of my body. I looked down and saw the body that was ‘me.’ I saw huge carpenter’s clamps holding me open so the doctor could operate on my intestines."...
“I chose a life with the greatest spiritual reward and not a cushy life of material success. Even though I chose the tough road, I wanted to know why I had so much trauma. One night I prayed for an answer. An angel appeared and said, ‘God needs good Jobs [the biblical Job] in this world, and you are one of them.’ God needed to test my character to see if my commitment to Him would bear up under adversity. I trust that He saw what lessons I needed to learn.”
Supreme Watcher or Witness in the Womb
Lorenzo refers to his broad womb-time awareness as being a Supreme Watcher or Witness: being aware of the Higher Self while simultaneously witnessing his thoughts and actions. Due to this heightened awareness, Lorenzo recalls coming into the fetus, witnessing the dramas in his parents’ lives, and exiting to other planets: “Earth would be blessed if people located that beautiful place inside themselves where the Supreme Witness takes over, where people become aware of who they really are. “I cannot pinpoint when my Soul entered my mother’s womb; however, I recall the special process, or divine infusion, that took place as my Soul infused with the “matter body” or “matter-being” [the fetus] in the womb. The connection was made in the initial spark of self-love. We cannot be born without self-love, without self-acceptance. “The Soul has a contract with the matter being, i.e., the union of egg and sperm, so that it can fulfill its life’s lessons in that particular body. The Soul brings parallel life memory and karma on the Soul level with it; the ‘matter-being’ [physical body] brings genetic memory and karma on the physical level with it....
I was drawn into the drama, and heavy lessons began. On the other hand, it was the grounding point, part of my Cosmic Contract. “We need to pay attention to discomfort. The valleys can be as accelerating as anything else. Both negativity and positivity are exhilarating when we have no attachment. A car moves forward due to its battery’s negative and positive poles; so too our peaks and valleys give us permission to evolve fully. As Nietzsche said, Be careful about casting out your demon, you might be casting out the best part of you. We tend to deny our negative side. This is a mistake. Both sides are important. If we release ourselves from attachment to good and bad, we expand our being. All lessons are born through the coexistence of opposites.”
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Reluctant Sojourner Recalls Light at Birth
"Angie recalls a great reluctance to be born before cervical dilation. “Before my birth I felt bathed in peace and safety all around. A bright, soft light appeared in the darkness. I kept fighting; I knew it would be so very cold if I went to the light. As I was thinking about what was about to happen, I heard a male voice say, ‘You must go to the light now. You are only going for a little while; you will come back. Trust me that everything will be okay.’ I didn’t want to leave. I felt like this being was right there with me. I felt safe with him and went to the light. And just as I already knew, it was cold. I saw the doctor, a nurse, and my mother. A woman singing to me warmed me up and placed me on a scale. I was afraid that I might fall off. Mom’s voice calmed me down, and everything felt okay after that."
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Beams of Light
Tim planned his last lifetime on Earth.“I remember where I was before I was born: I was ‘Home.’ I loved everyone deeply and knew they loved me the same. We are all Souls traveling, coming and going. That place is Home for all of us. I met my Spiritual Guide before birth. I was lying in the grass under a tree in this heavenly world. I was thinking about the thrill of coming into the physical world. I knew without any doubt, that after this life, I would stay back Home for good. I felt a sigh of relief. I reflected on past lives like flipping through 3-D images in a Rolodex file. With each blink of my eyes, I saw one life after another: ‘bam, bam, bam.’ I thought, ‘Oh, I remember that,’ or ‘Oh, there’s that possession I missed.’ I suddenly stood up and told my Guide, ‘I’ll do it.’ Next thing I knew, I was slammed into Mom’s belly. I felt the physical world—loud gushing sounds, heartbeat, and bowel tones. I yelled, ‘I want to go back; I don’t want to do this again.’
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Howard Storm
The Guides gently explained why Howard should return:
(1) they assured him that mistakes are an acceptable part of being human. Mistakes are the way he will learn. If he makes a mistake, he should try not to make the same mistake again.
(2) the world is a beautiful manifestation of God, and depending on where we direct our mind, we find beauty or ugliness;
(3) every aspect of creation is fascinating, and to explore this world with wonder and enjoyment is a great opportunity;
(4) our love can come to you even when you are on Earth if you become quiet inside and ask.
With that, Howard ran out of arguments and agreed to return to his body.
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Judged himself as not worthy to be liberated so manifested another lifetime on earth?
"Raghavan, a forty-four-year-old businessman from India and a happily married man with three children, recalls: “I remember my untimely death at a young age in my previous life. I was stabbed, and life ended in pain. While dying, I tried to remember details about that life. Some external force purposefully erased my memory. I only recollect the dying process. After death, I flew with God’s messenger. The divine escort telepathically informed me that I was going for judgment. The messenger asked me to wait in a dimension of total emptiness. I stood on a platform structure, floating in space. My Soul felt not my time to go to Heaven permanently for final liberation. Instead, if I do good deeds in my next birth, these merits will count toward final salvation. “Finally the Supreme One entered my thoughts: ‘What sort of a rebirth do you want? Do you want luck? Or do you want a good family with secure finances, but you will not have any luck?’ I opted for the good family without luck. Next I found myself nestled in Mom’s womb."
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Supreme Initiation by a Being of White Light
:Floyd caught a glimpse of one great Being of White Light. “This being had served the Light. Floyd had been given the choice to stay in the higher worlds for a while; instead he chose to be reborn: “The immense Light Being counseled me, ‘Your next life will be difficult, yet you have an opportunity to grow more. Many atrocities will be committed in the world. You will not have the same opportunities as in your prior life. You may not be recognized; circumstances will be more challenging. The vast consciousness of this Light Being inspired me to continue my evolution, and I desired further growth.”
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"Diane’s Soul entered this life after a long course of previous existences on Earth and in other dimensions where she acquired her gifts as a healer: “Our Soul seeks wholeness. Our Soul is designed to grow. We take journeys into a diverse array of forms to enhance our awareness. When I came out of flesh as Spirit after my last life, I went through eleven substations before resting in an inner realm of Light. I reviewed my life’s lessons and my awakenings to the truth: ‘What was that about for me?’ ‘What did I learn?’ ‘What is it in the life that I kept out because I was afraid?’ ‘What did I not allow to happen because I didn’t see the whole picture?’ Sometimes I was not as open to the love and opportunities because my upbringing shadowed over the truth of my Soul. “I reflected on what" chakra. “To be in human form is the best gift we can receive. Each body is a unique genetic blueprint. Compared to all the angelic realms, Source included, human existence with all its diversity, coexisting opposites, and all its learning and sensory input is the grandest of the grand. Source is easy. It only knows Source. Human life is the beauty.
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"Awareness of First Individuation from Source “I remember Source. It was the most amazing bright light. Source has a definition, but it does not have the same edges as we do when we are in a human body. I remember the immense radiance and specific colors. The love at Source is so pure and strong. We think it will be the same when we get down here. I go back to that memory of All That Is, All That Is One, and the Source of all of us when I do my healing work. Source is a place where there is no resistance, no contrast, only light, love, and purity. It is so broad and full; you don’t see the parts. All feelings are there—not delineated feeling. “When I was that flame, that undefined, unformed energy, I only felt expansion and the truth of that. I also remember the first time I dropped off from Source and chose to go down a separate path. I felt a gravitational pull to go and a force to stay. To stay in this place was perfect: ‘Oh, my God. How glorious is that.’ Yet the force to go was more important. My Soul’s enthusiasm wanted to explore and won over the safety and comfort of staying at Source. But I wanted the experience, it was like saying good-bye to your best friend: ‘Why would I ever leave here? What was I thinking?’ It was ‘hello—good-bye’ all at the same time. “To know ‘thyself,’ you have to separate and come back. How do you know yourself if you are all Oneness, all things? You cannot recognize something in Oneness, you have to go out of Oneness and experience the contrast. How can you recognize ‘that’ if you don’t move into duality so that you can see that there is ‘this’ and ‘that’? How do you ‘know thyself’ if you are all things and you do not have any contrast? That force was drawing me out. How can I know myself as a Soul signature that is eternal if I do not move out of Oneness? Most Souls think they will remember when they leave Source; paradoxically, one-eighth of their memory is left at best. “We emerge from Source as a specific signature, an individual spark. A Signature defines our Soul with a significant tone, colors, configuration, and visual placement. No matter how many billions of people there are, there will never be anyone else with your signature. I love that. This eternal energy will move forward forever and always be that exact pure divine Truth.”
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"Earth. I see how I’m doing. I have an overview and know what I am lacking in my overall lesson plan. Nothing is forbidden for me to know. I scan past lives. I look at what I need to do nine lives ahead. I can experiment to realize what I need to figure out about myself next, so I can grow more. I can go anywhere, learn anything, and hang with anyone I want to be with, including myself. A discussion, a powwow, takes place with my angel or Soul group. I tend to be hypercritical: ‘I didn’t get that right. Boy, I wish I had done that differently.’ My angels encourage me to be gentle: ‘No, you did fine. Your life was lovely, incredible. You learned this, and you learned that.’ I always pick the one thing I didn’t hit. They say, ‘Don’t be upset. Look at the big picture, not that tiny speck that didn’t turn out perfect.’"
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“Later, when I acquired the vocabulary, I told Mom that we had been together in an assembly of Light Beings, like a gathering of your best friends having a good time. Everything was pure and on the same wavelength. We interacted telepathically. A Higher Being with a motherly presence counseled each Soul in the assembly concerning their life plan. The Great Being told me: ‘This is your plan, your goal. These are things you have to endure and go through. Everything will make sense in the end. So take it and go.’"
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"P.M. H. Atwater’s NDE (United States, born 1946): “For the first time I looked upon myself to see what possible form or shape I might have, and to my surprise and joy I had no shape or form at all. I was naught but a sparkle of consciousness, the most minuscule spark of light imaginable. And that is all I was. I was content that way, without ego or identity, pure, whole, and uncomplicated. Within that nothingness I had become, I simply existed, ecstatic in perfect bliss and peace, perfection itself and perfect love. Everywhere around me were sparkles like myself, billions and trillions of them, winking and blinking like on/off lights, pulsating from some unknown source.”
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"Plato (Greece, circa 424–347 BCE): “Socrates argues that the soul is immortal and continually moves between our world and the underworld. When the soul entered our world we call it birth and when it leaves we call it death, but in reality the soul never perishes. Since it has over time seen all things, both in this world and the underworld, the soul knows everything—there is nothing it has not learned. Thus what we generally call learning is nothing but the soul recollecting what it already knows.”7"
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