Ryan Daniel Gable - The Secret Teachings - Interview with Wayne Bush --Trick of the Light & The Afterlife Trap: How to Exit the Matrix, 10-2017

NOTE: These are the notes I had prepared for the show, but I ended up not really using them aside from a few quotes that I read so I also recommend listening to the audio.

Here is a link to the interview: Radio Show audio


Hi, Ryan. Thanks for having me on your show. I started the web site trickedbythelight.com I think sometime around 2004. It was an effort to investigate the popular meme that one goes to the light at death. I mean, we hear it all the time in Hollywood movies and from psychic mediums. But what really happens when we go to the light? I'm going to attempt to answer that question as well as the other existential questions such as why are we here? where did we come from? what is the meaning of life? and where do we go when we die? do we even have a choice?

These are the big questions everyone asks and, of course, they are very difficult to answer with any certainty. I'm going to try a different approach for this show. I am going to look at this like a detective would try to solve a mystery for that's exactly what it is. We are born into this world naked, ignorant and helpless, without a clue so to speak. It doesn't take very long before we realize we are slaves to the system and that there is something very wrong here. All one need do is observe how nature kills each other in order to survive. The comedian George Carlin quipped, "Something is wrong here. War, disease, death, destruction, hunger, filth, poverty, torture, crime, corruption, and the Ice Capades. Something is definitely wrong."

As we get a little older and go to school we are given a few clues, but they are conflicting. Science tells us we evolved from apes and religion tells us we were created by god in his image. If we evolved from monkeys then why are monkeys still here? And why are there no half-men, half-monkeys? There is that pesky missing link. And there are so many different religions and they all claim to have the only truth, yet they contradict each other. Which one is the correct one, if any? And then there are the accounts from thousands of people who have died and come back to tell of their experiences...many who claimed to have actually met a being that some say is god. There are others who have gained glimpses into an alternate reality through mystical experiences whether through psychoactive substances or in meditative states. Others claim to have received messages through channeling or alien abductions. And still others have gained insight through out of body experiences and remote viewing. And then there are the intuitives and sensitive artist types who receive information through their inspirational muse and create music and movies that are filled with symbolism as a result. We should consider all these areas and look for commonality. After all, all these areas feed information into our brains and help to build our perception of reality from which we make our decisions.

Perhaps it would be best to start at the beginning and look at what history has to say. We have some clues to go on thanks to archaeologists. We could look at the oldest known civilizaton and that is the Sumerians. Eridu and Ur are claimed to be the two oldest cities we know of. There are earlier temples such as the one at Gobekli Tepe so what we have found there is important as well, especially since there is evidence of cannibalism and possible human sacrifice. We do have tablets from Sumer and they do give very detailed records, including the fashioning of man.

The Sumerian texts reference the Anuna gods and call them "the Anuna, the great gods"..."the gods of heaven and Earth"..."the Anuna gods who shine forth radiantly."...."The Anuna, the seven judges,"... "the Anuna gods, who came forth from the mountain range"....and says they "sit at the funerary offerings" and are "the lords who decree fates" who have "shining thrones".

"Like heaven itself, your just matrix, in which gods too can be born, is beyond reach. Giving birth to kings who put on the good diadem, giving birth to lords who wear the crown on their heads"

"My terrifying splendour will cover you. Since you cannot escape from { my } great strength, the goldsmith shall puff and blow on you with his breath. You shall be shaped by him to form a matrix for his creations"

"In those days... when the Anuna gods were born; when the goddesses were taken in marriage; when the goddesses were distributed in heaven and earth;... the senior gods oversaw the work, while the minor gods were bearing the toil. The gods were digging the canals and piling up the silt in Ḫarali. The gods, crushing the clay, began complaining about this life.

Enki and Ninmaḫ: c.1.1.2
At that time, the one of great wisdom, the creator of all the senior gods, Enki lay on his bed, not waking up from his sleep, in the deep engur, in the subterranean water, the place the inside of which no other god knows. The gods said, weeping: "He is the cause of the lamenting!" Namma, the primeval mother who gave birth to the senior gods, took the tears of the gods to the one who lay sleeping, to the one who did not wake up from his bed, to her son: "Are you really lying there asleep, and …… not awake? The gods, your creatures, are smashing their ……. My son, wake up from your bed! Please apply the skill deriving from your wisdom and create a substitute (?) for the gods so that they can be freed from their toil!"
And after Enki,
the fashioner of designs by himself, had pondered the matter, he said to his mother Namma: "My mother, the creature you planned will really come into existence."

The BABYLONIAN CREATION MYTH, THE ENUMA ELISH, states: "May he shepherd the black-headed ones, his creatures. To the end of days, without forgetting, let them acclaim his ways. May he establish for his fathers the great food-offerings; (110)
May he cause incense to be smelled, . . . their spells, Make a likeness on earth of what he has wrought in heaven. May he order the black-headed to revere him, Let the black-headed wait on their gods." end-quote


"Namma, the primeval mother who gave birth to the senior gods" ...According to wikipedia "Nammu was the Goddess sea (Engur) that gave birth to An (heaven) and Ki (earth) and the first gods" and that "The Atrahasis-Epos has it that Enlil requested from Nammu the creation of humans. And Nammu told him that with the help of Enki (her son) she can create humans in the image of gods."... According to the god list An-Anum, tablet I line 28 (Litke 1998: 24; Wiggermann 1998-2001c: 137), Namma bears the title "mother who gave birth to the heavens and the earth."..... In the Sumerian poem of Enki and Ninmah (ETCSL 1.1.2, line 17) Namma is called the "original mother who gave birth to the gods of the universe"


An or Anu:

"Great An, father of the gods".. "When, upon the hill of heaven and earth, An spawned the Anuna gods"...."May An, king of the gods, declare "Enough!" to you. May Enlil, king of all the lands, decree your fate."... "holy An, the judge who searches out verdicts for the gods"

According to wikipedia, "Ki was the earth goddess in Sumerian mythology, chief consort of the sky god An. "... "By her consort Anu, Ki gave birth to the Anunnaki, the most prominent of these deities being Enlil, god of the air. According to legends, heaven and earth were once inseparable until Enlil was born; Enlil cleaved heaven and earth in two. An carried away heaven. Ki, in company with Enlil, took the earth."


"Enlil, king of all the lands"....."the Great Mountain Enlil"... "Enlil, the lord who determines fate"... "Enlil, king of the gods"...."Enlil, king of heaven and earth"..."Enlil, the beaming light"..."Enlil, the good shepherd,"...."the en priesthood and the kingship -- were created for Enlil."........


"Enki, the fashioner of designs by himself"... "Enki, lord of heaven and earth "...."lord of wisdom, "...."lord of the Abzu...."The great prince Enki"...."the one of great wisdom, the creator of all the senior gods, Enki ".... "Great lord, prominent (?) among the gods, your judgments are clever and powerful! Father Enki, respected one, supreme dragon, who determines the fates firmly, who has taken his seat upon the numerous divine powers in colourful brilliance (?), great prince, the guardian of the gods, …… of holy An!"...." I am the leader of the Anuna gods. I was born as the firstborn son of holy An.".."...great dragon who stands in Eridug, whose shadow covers heaven and earth, a grove of vines extending over the Land, Enki, lord of plenty of the Anuna gods"

.. Enki is talked about in the tablets "Inana and Enki", "Enki and Ninmah" and also in the tablet named "Enki and the World Order".

"My brother, in those days when destiny was determined, when abundance overflowed in the Land, when An had taken the heavens for himself, when Enlil had taken the earth for himself, when the nether world had been given to Ereškigala as a gift; when he set sail, when he set sail, when the father set sail for the nether world, when Enki set sail for the nether world -- against the lord a storm of small hailstones arose, against Enki a storm of large hailstones arose."

"Therein, equipped with the sceptre, you fashion the numerous seeds (?) …… for the assigned divine powers of the great gods; to create mankind and to preserve them alive is in your power, Father Enki, when you take your seat on the dais where you decide destinies."

"Enki placed in charge of all this him from whose net no fish escapes, him from whose trap no living thing escapes, him from whose bird-net no bird escapes, (1 line unclear)-- ……, who loves fish."


"Enlil's advice was given to Enki. Enki answered An and Enlil: ...after the assembly had made the Flood sweep over to destroy the seed of mankind, among us I was the only one who was for life (?), and so he remained alive (?) -- Zi-ud-sura, although (?) a human being, remained alive (?). Then you made me swear by heaven and by earth, and …… that no human will be allowed to live forever (?) any more. "....

The Flood story: c.1.7.4
...An, Enlil, Enki and Ninḫursaĝa made all the gods of heaven and earth take an oath by invoking An and Enlil. ....Zi-ud-sura, standing at its side, heard: "Side-wall standing at my left side, ……. Side-wall, I will speak words to you; take heed of my words, pay attention to my instructions. A flood will sweep over the …… in all the ……. A decision that the seed of mankind is to be destroyed has been made. The verdict, the word of the divine assembly, cannot be revoked. The order announced by An and Enlil cannot be overturned."

Although Enki created mankind on behalf of the decision of the assembly of gods, it was Enki who interceded for mankind to save him from the flood when the other gods wanted to destroy man..

After the flood had swept over the land, and waves and windstorms had rocked the huge boat for seven days and seven nights, Utu the sun god came out, illuminating heaven and earth. Zi-ud-sura could drill an opening in the huge boat and the hero Utu entered the huge boat with his rays. Zi-ud-sura the king prostrated himself before Utu. The king sacrificed oxen and offered innumerable sheep.

"After the flood had swept over, and the kingship had descended from heaven..."

"After the flood had swept over and brought about the destruction of the countries; when mankind was made to endure, and the seed of mankind was preserved and the black-headed people all rose; when An and Enlil called the name of mankind and established rulership,..."

The god [Ea] began to say: "Why are you [plural] destroying [mankind]? They will not give sacrifices to the gods. They will not burn cedar as incense to you. If you [plural] destroy mankind, they will no longer [worship] the gods."


The Sumerian texts have this to say about Inana, a daughter ofEnki, who is called the Queen of Heaven, "the great lady of heaven, Inana!", "Inana, the queen of the gods".. "The lady of the evening, Inana".... "The lady exalted as high as the heaven, her grandeur reaches the borders of heaven".... "woman who is as bright as the stars" .... "who radiates ……, who shines by night,".... "Inana is supreme, with multifarious divine powers surpassing the other divine ladies. She perfected the divine plans of kingship, so as to re-establish it, and she made up her mind and truly yearned to provide justice for the black-headed and to give them stable governance"... "Inana, lioness shining in the heavens"...... "Inana sits on harnessed (?) lions, she cuts to pieces him who shows no respect"....

Look at how they describe her as a goddess who holds the torch similr to the goddess Columbia of Columbia Pictures and the Statue of Liberty.

"I shall greet her who ascends above, her who ascends above, I shall greet the Mistress who ascends above, I shall greet the great lady of heaven, Inana! I shall greet the holy torch who fills the heavens, the light, Inana, her who shines like daylight, the great lady of heaven, Inana! I shall greet the Mistress, the most awesome lady among the Anuna gods; the respected one who fills heaven and earth with her huge brilliance; the eldest daughter of Suen, Inana! For the young lady I shall sing a song about her grandeur, about her greatness, about her exalted dignity; about her radiantly ascending at evening; about her filling the heaven like a holy torch; about her stance in the heavens, as noticeable by all lands, from the south to the highlands, as that of Nanna or of Utu; about the greatness of the mistress of heaven!"

"Great light, heavenly lioness, always speaking words of assent! Inana, Ninegala! As you rise in the morning sky like a flame visible from afar, and at your bright appearance in the evening sky, the shepherd (i.e. the king) entrusts (?) the flocks of Sumer to you. Celestial sign, …… glory of heaven! All the countries are building a house for you as for the risen sun; a shining (?) torch is assigned to you, the light of the Land."

".. Inana who, having all the great divine powers, occupies a holy throne-dais; "

The tablet The Exaltation of Inana speaks of a priestess:
66-73. I, En-ḫedu-ana the en priestess, entered my holy ĝipar in your service. I carried the ritual basket, and intoned the song of joy. But {funeral offerings were} {(1 ms. has instead:) my ritual meal was} brought, as if I had never lived there. I approached the light, but the light was scorching hot to me. I approached that shade, but I was covered with a storm. My honeyed mouth became scum. My ability to soothe moods vanished.

"At her loud cries, the gods of the Land become scared. Her roaring makes the Anuna gods tremble like a solitary reed. At her rumbling, they hide all together. Without Inana great An makes no decisions, and Enlil determines no destinies. Who opposes the mistress who raises her head and is supreme over the mountains? Wherever she ……, cities become ruin mounds and haunted places, and shrines become waste land. When her wrath makes people tremble, the burning sensation and the distress she causes are like an ulu demon ensnaring a man."

""Inana, you heap up human heads like piles of dust, you sow heads like seed. Inana, you destroy what should not be destroyed; you create what should not be created."..."…… of weeping are brought to you, Inana, as offerings. The tubes of the underworld are opened for you, and memorial libations are poured down them for you."


A hymn to Nungal (Nungal A): c.4.28.1

There is a hymn to a goddess named Nungal who is Ninegala. Ninegala is another name for Inana as their is a hymn entitled "A Hymn to Inana as Ninegala". She is also Ishtar, Isis, Aphrodite, and Venus. As Inana she has been called the Queen of heaven.

The Hymn to Nungul does mention her as Ninegala and she judges. It says,

"When an individual is brought in, he cannot resist its aura. The gods of heaven and earth bow down before its place where judgments are made. 

 takes her seat high on its lapis-lazuli dais. She keeps an eye on the judgments and decisions, distinguishing true and false. Her battle-net of fine mesh is indeed cast over the land for her; the evildoer who does not follow her path will not escape her arm."

This is reminiscent of Indra's net in Hindusim.

"Mercy and compassion are mine. I frighten no one. I keep an eye upon the black-headed people: they are under my surveillance. I hold the tablet of life in my hand and I register the just ones on it. The evildoers cannot escape my arm; I learn their deeds. All countries look to me as to their divine mother.

Nungal said it is a prison or jail. "Because the lady has revealed her greatness; because she has provided the prison, the jail, her beloved dwelling, with awesome radiance, praise to be Nungal," end-quote

This is talking about shining light in the afterlife. The Gallu her helpers are translated Constable/Police Demons.

"Nungal, its lady, the powerful goddess whose aura covers heaven and earth, resides on its great and lofty dais. Having taken a seat in the precinct of the house, she controls the Land from there

On Reincarnation: "The interior of the temple gives rise to weeping, laments and cries. Its 
brick walls crush evil men and give rebirth to just men."

"When the time arrives, the prison is made up as for a public festival; the gods are present at the place of interrogation, at the river ordeal, to separate the just from the evildoers; a just man is given rebirth. Nungal clamps down on her enemy, so he will not escape her clutches."

Hymn to Nungal: 
" House, furious storm of heaven and earth, battering its own, enemies; prison, jail of the gods, august neck-stock of heaven and earth! Its interior is evening light, dusk spreading wide; its awesomeness is frightening. Raging sea which mounts high, no one knows where its rising waves flow. House, a pitfall waiting for the evil one; it makes the wicked tremble! House, a net whose fine meshes are skillfully woven, which gathers up people as its booty! House, which keeps an eye on the just and on evildoers; no one wicked can escape from its grasp. House, river of the ordeal which leaves the just ones alive, and chooses the evil ones! (Utu in the mountains, the Sun god) House, with a great name, nether world, mountain where Utu rises; no one can learn its interior! Big house, prison, house of capital offenses, which imposes punishment!"---


"House whose foundations are laden with great awesomeness! Its gate is the yellow evening light, exuding radiance. Its stairs are a great open-mouthed dragon, lying in wait for men. ....Its latch is a python, sticking out its tongue and hissing. Its bolt is a horned viper, slithering in a wild place. House, surveying heaven and earth, a net spread out! No evildoer can escape its grasp, as it drags the enemy around."

Her battle-net of fine mesh is indeed cast over the land for her; 47When a man of whom his god disapproves (?) arrives at the gate of the great house, which is a furious storm, a flood which covers everybody, 1d - Bau, spouse to Ninurta (Anunnaki giant alien goddess Bau, warden of Earth’s prisons) he is delivered into the august hands of Nungal, the warden of the prison; Its angry heart causes one to pass the days in weeping and lamentation. When the time arrives, the prison is made up as for a public festival; the gods are present at the place of interrogation, at the river ordeal, to separate the just from the evildoers; a just man is given rebirth. Nungal clamps down on her enemy, so he will not escape her clutches. "When an individual is brought in, he cannot resist its aura. " 

What happens as someone approaches the light?

In a Hymn to Inana it says: "Your divinity shines in the pure heavens like Nanna or Utu. Your torch lights up the corners of heaven, turning darkness into light. The men and women form a row for you and each one's daily status hangs down before you. Your numerous people pass before you, as before Utu, for their inspection. No one can lay a hand on your precious divine powers; all your divine powers ……. You exercise full ladyship over heaven and earth; you hold everything in your hand. Mistress, you are magnificent, no one can walk before you. You dwell with great An in the holy resting-place."

The moon god was named Nanna and the sun god was named Utu which makes this quote very interesting: "
A praise poem of Šulgi (Šulgi B): c.
But if his heart devises treason against me, and he commits violence against anything of mine, may Nanna then adjudicate against this rebel, and let Utu the torch catch him. " .

"...When like Utu you bring forth a just light, people's eyes are indeed directed towards it..." ..."When like Utu I decide a just verdict, the people bring their prayers to the holy shrines ".... "Utu, the judge, the king of heaven and earth, has confirmed for you in your hands the sceptre which brings the black-headed to justice. "..... "...Say to Utu my lord, the exalted judge of heaven and earth, who cares for the Land, who renders verdicts; just god, who loves to keep man alive, who heeds entreaty, who extends mercy, who knows …… compassion, who loves justice, who selects honesty, ……:

"Youthful Utu ……, …… from Uraš; brilliant light, great lion, ……, hero emerging from the holy interior of heaven, storm whose splendour covers the Land and is laden with great awesomeness; Utu, king of justice"

"...May Lord Nanna, king of heaven and earth, your good protective deity, accept the holy food offerings that you prepare, and the holy pure drink offerings that you proffer with holy hands; the sacrifices that you bring, what you say in your heart, what you utter out loud, your reverent gestures and your holy hands raised in prayer...."

"Born in the mountains and coming forth in joy, he is a powerful force, a lion, a dragon, a mighty lord -- Suen, mouth like a dragon's, ruler of Urim! Nanna, born in the mountains and coming forth in joy, he is a powerful force, a lion, a dragon, a mighty lord -- Suen, mouth like a dragon's, ruler of Urim!"


The Mesopotamian god of the Underworld, Nergal -- a son of Enlil -- was the God of War and Plague. He was not very high in status early on.
At some point the chief god An helped him by giving him seven companions or weapons, otherwise known as the "Seven Evil Spirits".

"Lord of the underworld, who acts swiftly in everything, whose terrifying anger smites the wicked, Nergal, single-handed crusher, who tortures the disobedient "

Nergal: "Nergal, dragon covered with gore, drinking the blood of living creatures"...

" Nergal, who is mighty and with a fiery surrounding in which you are encircled, who raises the Lion-Mace! Nergal, who takes the form of the Lion-Dragon raise thy blade! To that terrifying splendor no other god stands before Hail to thee, Nergal Nergal, Dragon supreme, Great God! I call you by the fires of sharrapu Thou burning fires of conquest By the funeral rites to which you were called To the shades which drink blood in your name! May the Seven tear their soul(s) to ribbons! In this flame I curse them, let the Serpents' tongue arise! Nergal's fiery serpents shall encircle it and consume...

"To devour the souls of who do not see you! "

"shades which drink blood" -- shadow beings, gallu?

J.C. Greenfiield wrote: "An epithet of the god Nergal in Hatra inscriptions is related to his role of punishing divinity, in the meaning of ―executioner, butcher, torturer‖. He was primarily keeper of the underworld and the god of pestilence. As the god of the underworld, he functioned as a judge. His lion-headed mace was able to punish and wreak vengeance. ". end-quote

"Being a deity of the desert, god of fire.....Nergal was sometimes called a demon and even identified with Satan." end-quote

The book "Seven Great Monarchies Of The Ancient Eastern World" chronicles Nergal's move to Israel "The city peculiarly dedicated to Nergal was Cutha... Hence " the men of Cuth," when transported to Samaria by the Assyrians, naturally enough " made Nergal their god," carrying his worship with them into their new country."

In the New Testament Jesus enters into the Temple teaching and talking to the Pharisees. Jesus states that his Father is not the same as their Father. "Ye are of your father the devil. He was a murderer from the beginning."

Remember that Nergal was the Lord of Pestilence, War and the Underworld, that is Death. Now look at how Yahweh operates in just a couple of many Old Testament quotes below about Jehovah-Yahweh.:

"sacrifice unto the Lord our God; lest he fall upon us with pestilence, or with the sword." "For now I will stretch out my hand, that I may smite thee and thy people with pestilence; "So the Lord sent pestilence upon Israel: and there fell of Israel seventy thousand men." Yahweh was a composite of many gods such as An, Enlil, Enki, Zoroaster, Mithra, El and others but his personality and attributes most closely mirror Nergal.

Nergal was worshiped by the Greeks as Ares, the god of war. From Ares probably came the word 'aristocracy' (aristos + -kratia/-cracy) which is the greek term used for the ruling class who are deemed to be 'best' or supreme to the lower classes. Ariel (pronounced Ari'el), literally means 'Lion of God' and is another name the Gnostics used for the Demiurge. Ariel in the Hebrew Bible is one of the names for Jerusalem and the Temple of Jerusalem.

In Hebrew "The Land of Israel" is 'Éres Yisra'el (Eretz Yisrael)...thus the word for land as in the promised land is pronounced the same as the war god, Ares".

Wikipedia also eqates Azrael with the angel of death even in Hebrew... Also spelled Izrail, Izrael, Azriel...

Nergal, the god of the Underworld or Hell -- the devil -- has the lion as his symbol. His temple and people were moved from his home, Cutha, to Samaria, the Kingdom of Israel. The tribe of Judah put the lion on their official emblem and flag. The Devil is described in the Bible as a lion seeking to devour. The Gnostics say the false god, the Demiurge, has the face of a lion. I noticed that only a handful of near death experiencers reported being able to see the face of "god", but a few of those who did saw the face of a lion.

All of the major religions were created or influenced by a group known as the Shepherd Kings or Royal Shepherds. Some researchers also claim them to be Serpent Kings. They came from the city known as Cuth or Cutha. It seems the Gutians took over Cutha and set up the temple for Nergal and then the Gutians/Cuthim/Khazars were the Royal Sheperd Kings of the anunnaki and spread the religions over the rest of the globe.

The Emperor of France, Napolean, said, " Religion is what keeps the poor man from murdering the rich." end-quote
IMO, Religion is nothing but a royal scam of the royal family. It's because they're a royal pain in the ass and we're getting royally screwed. All major religions were created by the royal family or nobility. All the saviors were princes. Krishna was a prince. Buddha was a prince. Moses was the Prince of Egypt. Jesus was in the line of King David.

The Bible says Lucifer masquerades as an angel of light (2 Corinthians 11:14)

It also says "I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things."

The Gnostic texts are the next puzzle piece of the mystery I'd like to talk about as they say virtually the same thing as the Sumerian tablets but using different terminology.

The Gnostics believed in knowing the truth through direct experience rather than through faith. They believed the soul is imprisoned in the body and that the god of this world is not the true ultimate god or is of a lesser creator god called the Demiurge. The concept of a demiurge seemed to originate with greek philosophers such as Plato. The Gnostics were influenced by the greek philosophers and saw the Demiurge as being more of an evil entity and not a necessary evil. They said the god of the Old Testament, Yahweh, is a false god.

Gnostics put forth ideas about the universe being a holographic copy a couple thousand years ago. In the gnostic book "On the Origin of the World" it was written -- "likeness emanated became a product resembling the primeval light manifested as a likeness of heaven"end-quote

It says, "...come let us create a man out of earth, according to the image of our body and according to the likeness of this being, to serve us; so that when he sees his likeness, he might become enamored of it. No longer will he ruin our work; rather,we shall make those who are born out of the light our servants for all the duration of this eternal realm."...

"Now all of this came to pass according to the forethought of Pistis, in order that man should appear after his likeness, and should condemn them because of their modelled form. And their modelled form became an enclosure of the light.... And it is they who were taken captive, according to their destinies, by the prime parent. And thus they were shut into the prisons of the modelled forms until the consummation of the age."

"After the natural structure of the immortal beings had completely developed out of the infinite, a likeness then emanated from Pistis (Faith); it is called Sophia (Wisdom). It exercised volition and became a product resembling the primeval light. And immediately her will manifested itself as a likeness of heaven, having an unimaginable magnitude; it was between the immortal beings and those things that came into being after them, like [...]: she (Sophia) functioned as a veil dividing mankind from the things above."

In the Gnostic text "Pistis Sophia" it is written, "She [Sophia] had been deluded through the god-like Self-willed [Demiurge], and had not been deluded through anything else, save through a light-power, because of its resemblance to the Light in which she had had faith." end quote

Here is a quote from The Secret Book of John, a Gnostic text from the Nag Hammadi Library: "Yaldabaoth [Demiurge] said to the authorities [archons] with him, Come, let us create a human being after the image of god and with a likeness to ourselves, so that this human image may give us light." end-quote

The Demiurge's heavens are a copy of the real heavens. "And she established each of his offspring in conformity with its power - after the pattern of the realms that are above, for by starting from the invisible world the visible world was invented." end-quote

The demiurge's realms are a copy of the real thing. He has stolen light from Sophia, so they have light to use. The real light is from Source and those light realms would be set up similarly.

The Demiurge is a false gaud. Dictionary.com explains that the word 'gaud' originated from the mid and late 14th century and meant a "jest, joke, prank, trick; also fraud, deception, trick, artifice".

The Gospel of Philip declares, "God is a man-eater. For this reason, men are sacrificed to him."

"And what she had created became a product in the matter, like an aborted fetus. And it assumed a plastic form molded out of shadow, and became an arrogant beast resembling a lion." " it changed into a form of a lion-faced serpent. And its eyes were like lightning fires which flash."

This is a passage from the Gnostic book, Pistis Sophia which tells how the goddess Sophia desired to enter the regions of the higher light world that she was tricked into following the lower false light of the Demiurge instead of the higher true light.

And Jesus answered and said unto his disciples: "It came to pass, when Pistis Sophia was in the thirteenth æon, in the region of all her brethren the invisibles, that is the four-and-twenty emanations of the great Invisible,--it came to pass then by command of the First Mystery that Pistis Sophia gazed into the height. She saw the light of the veil of the Treasury of the Light, and she longed to reach to that region, and she could not reach to that region. But she ceased to perform the mystery of the thirteenth æon, and sang praises to the light of the height, which she had seen in the light of the veil of the Treasury of the Light.

"It came to pass then, when she sang praises to the region of the height, that all the rulers in the twelve æons, who are below, hated her, because she had ceased from their mysteries, and because she had desired to go into the height and be above them all. For this cause then they were enraged against her and hated her, [as did] the great triple-powered Self-willed, that is the third triple-power, who is in the thirteenth æon, he who had become disobedient, in as much as he had not emanated the whole purification of his power in him, and had not given the purification of his light at the time when the rulers gave their purification, in that he desired to rule over the whole thirteenth æon |45. and those who are below it.

"It came to pass then, when the rulers of the twelve æons were enraged against Pistis Sophia, who is above them, and hated her exceedingly, that the great triple-powered Self-willed, of whom I have just now told you, joined himself to the rulers of the twelve æons, and also was enraged against Pistis Sophia and hated her exceedingly, because she had thought to go to the light which is higher than her. And he emanated out of himself a great lion-faced power, and out of his matter in him he emanated a host of other very violent material emanations, and sent them into the regions below, to the parts of the chaos, in order that they might there lie in wait for Pistis Sophia and take away her power out of her, because she thought to go to the height which is above them all, and moreover she had ceased to perform their mystery, and lamented continuously and sought after the light which she. had seen. And the rulers who abide, or persist, in performing the mystery, hated her, and all the guards who are at the gates of the æons, hated her also.

"It came to pass then thereafter by command of the First Commandment that the great triple-powered Self-willed, who is one of the three |46. triple-powers, pursued Sophia in the thirteenth æon, in order that she should look towards the parts below, so that she might see in that region his lion-faced light-power and long after it and go to that region, so that her light might be taken from her."

"It came to pass then thereafter that she looked below and saw his light-power in the parts below; and she knew not that it is that of the triple-powered Self-willed, but she thought that it came out of the light which she had seen from the beginning in the height, which came out of the veil of the Treasury of the Light. And she thought to herself: I will go into that region without my pair and take the light and thereout fashion for myself light-æons, so that I may go to the Light of lights, which is in the Height of heights.

"This then thinking, she went forth from her own region, the thirteenth æon, and went down to the twelve æons. The rulers of the æons pursued her and were enraged against her, because she had thought of grandeur. And she went forth also from the twelve æons, and came into the regions of the chaos and drew nigh to that lion-faced light-power to devour it. But all the material emanations of Self-willed surrounded her, and the great lion-faced light-power devoured all the light-powers in Sophia and cleaned out her light and devoured it, and her matter was thrust into the chaos; it became a lion-faced ruler in the chaos, of which one half is fire and the other darkness,--that is Yaldabaōth, of whom I have spoken unto you many times. When then this befell, Sophia became very greatly exhausted, and that lion-faced light-power set to work to take away from Sophia all her light-powers, and all the material powers of Self-willed surrounded Sophia at the same time and pressed her sore.

So according to the Gnostics one of the newest aeons or emanations of god named Sophia (Wisdom) created the Demiurge. One version says it was out of a desire to create her own realms similar to the Eternal Light Realms. The texts say this was done without consulting her consort, the Ineffable Father. Thus the Demiurge was "without spirit", perhaps a way of saying it was an AI creation having consciousness but no soul. When she saw her inferior creation which was without spirit she
became embarassed and placed a veil up and put the Demiurge on a throne within a cloud so that it could not be seen. The Demiurge being alone thought himself to be god. When he was informed he was not the true god he became jealous and out of this jealousy shadow beings or archons were created. He stole the Light power from Sophia.

This universe and mankind was created by the Demiurge and his archontic parasites but in order to get man to stand the Demiurge was tricked into breathing the breath of life or Light Power into him. Adam was divine because of the Light Power. Thus man has an inner light within which consists of a divine spark. But the demiurge and rulers bonded every man with a counterfeit spirit which records all his actions and compels him on to negative thoughts and actions. The Archons supposedly were produced not in full and are unable to hold the "Light Power".

Sophia repented and was forgiven. A correction was enacted from the Eternal Light Realms and Christ was sent to show the way out of this matrix.

Psychedelic experiences are the next clue in the mystery.

parasitic entities are commonly reported in ayahuasca ceremonies. Ayahuasca is DMT-based. Dr, Rick Strassman in his book "DMT: The Spirit Molecule" noted, "I continually feel surprise in seeing how many of our volunteers "made contact" with "them," or other beings. At least half did so in one form or another. Research subjects used expressions like "entities," "beings," "aliens," "guides," and "helpers" to describe them. The "life-forms" looked like clowns, reptiles, mantises, bees, spiders, cacti, and stick figures. It is still startling to see my written records of comments like "There were these beings," "I was being led," "They were on me fast." end-quote

The astral parasites that attach to our energy fields are black moldy bile-like dark shadowy entities. They have been depicted as ticks, leeches, eels, and octopi with tentacles. There are a lot of movies that show this black goo substance. The Gnostic texts mention matter being made from the bile of the shadow created from the jealousy of the Demiurge.

dmt-nexus: "I have experienced these parasites... these Archons, as I've come to learn they are. (supposedly they prefer that term because it means "lord" or "ruler," which is just what they want you to see them as to us. So let's just stick with interdimensional parasites, because that's what they are. They feed off of lower vibrations and like others have said, that's all they do... is feed off of us. That's all they're really able to do. However we have more power over them than we think... because they are separated from the source, the light.... if we connect to the light and higher vibrations... these buggers can't mess with us. (sounds like gullible newagey bullcrap but read into what the Gnostics had to say of these guys) " end-quote

dmt-nexus: I remember starting to not feel like myself... like I was possessed by an interdimensional alien. As the trip progressed this thing really started messing with my energy and reality.
I got the impression it fed off of my energy and that it was demonic with bad intentions. "

"... The entity then initiated telepathic communication with me, It said that it lived by extracting human thought/emotion. --different types of thought/emotion were valued differently; those with a more intense energy charge, such as fear or love, were worth more. The entity explained that it existed in another dimension so that it could feed off of human thought unhindered."

Here is a mushroom experience from shroomery.org: "It really felt as if I was on a stretcher in a grass field with lights over me that now felt like flash lights with dark shadowy entities around me. The Archons knew my consciousness was coming into their frequency.
This entire time I felt as if someone or something was looking at me. From ALL directions but never directly. It was in my peripheral vision and awareness that I felt this presence of an eye looking at me as a dark eye lingers in the treeline. The eye represented by the Illuminati. The Archonic control-grid realm itself. I felt the eye presence in my peripheral vision. As I turned to look towards it it would shift into my peripheral vision and this happened any direction I wou
ld look. I told it to please don't hurt me I come in peace as my breathing was very shallow and heavy. The more shallow the breath the more intense the feelings and visuals. They feed on fear, depression, anger, sadness. Low frequency emotions. They have been feeding from my soul for a very long time..."

dmt-nexus: "I could see entities more distinctly this time. Two in particular watched me arriving and being settled into this landscape. It was like they were farmers...– I was being milked or something... I came to realise I was being distracted with information so that they could do what they wanted – feed? Harvest? ...
During these stages I would have recurring flashes or images of some jellyfish-like creature or something like an octopus with suckered tentacles. Whatever it was I felt like I was connecting to the tendrils or the tentacles during this feeding phase. "

dmt-nexus: "Last night I encountered a hunter, I may have been one also. I saw this spider/tick/crab creature... These parasites are ugly and nasty. They feed off humans, either our soul, or bodies from the parallel dimension... They seem to be attracted to negative emotions.... They prefer hiding, as they can feed on a host unseen. They can influence thoughts and behavior to suit their goal... "

I just watched a documentary recently on Salvia, a psychoactive plant. The person tried it a few times and came to this startling conclusion: "Have you ever seen that episode of Southpark where they found out that Earth was a reality TV show and that extraterrestrials were watching it across the universe? This is basically how my trip was. By the way, I never even saw that episode until recently." 

Here are a few interesting experiences of people using Salvia and DMT.

There are many reports online from users of Salvia who report encountering a wheel. One said, "I remembered I was on the outside of this reality busy doing something, when unintentionally, I got caught up in its path as it was rolling by. It feels as though I belong on the outside and am actually always there, but my gaze has been temporarily fixed in ths reality and I can't escape its pull. I get a strong sense that I've accidentally went into this life/reality and that seems to make me angry. As I feel I don't belong here, I know that I have to pretend to be a part of it and just wait till I die to get out."
He went on to talk about a being that is rolling our reality. "...A gap suddenly opens up in the fabric of reality and I'm outside which appears all white. I instantly remember that I've been here all along and what feels like my real identity takes over. I begin to telepathically communicate with the being that appears to be overseeing this reality, and I ask questions about the nature of this reality and life etc but I'm told I'm 'not allowed' to know some things"...
The being tells him, "You're not a part of that reality., It's just a game god created for us to play. It's only temporary. You'll be out of it soon. God said we all have to play it. It's not real, but we still have to go through it. just take part and play along. Don't worry, when you get out everything's going to be alright, but you must live out your time."

Here is someone on Reddit recalling their DMT experience: "I feel as though I fall right out of my body 20 feet below the couch and bounce on the worlds largest trampoline before being blasted straight out of the top of my head at 100,000 miles an hour through interstellar space into a brilliant tunnel of white light. The inside of the tunnel is miles wide and the walls lined in 360 degrees with floating beings who are chanting "It is so good to see you!" and "You are doing so well!" "We haven't seen you in so long."
There are millions of them and to me they appeared as bodhisattvas or what some I believe would see as angels. I drop out on the other side of the tunnel and immediately remember. "Oh this is the place in between lives." I think I have been here many many time before. For
what feels like trillions. Something shifts inside me and memories start to flood back of past lives. As I glance around I am floating through outer space...
Then I notice two shape shifting beings kind of bouncing around. Little creatures maybe 3 - 4 feet in height, but with no real defined figure... I ask them "What do you do for work here?"...
They explain telepathically. 'Well.. we don't have to work, because we don't have physical bodies to feed or house. This allows us time to work on spiritual development and pursue studying what is fun and interesting to us.' At that moment it cues me to look down at my own body. I am nothing, but translucent golden light and I can see straight through myself." endquote

I have been reading posts on the Reddit 'Glitch in the Matrix' subforum where normal people are seeing the matrix grid sometimes upon waking.  This DMT experiencer online mentioned a grid: "Staring up into the blank, white ceiling, I beheld a domed matrix of superimposed, intricate yellow lines. Overall, the matrix was fixed, but as I observed, I became aware of additional elemental lines, slowly perceiving additional detail as one might experience when viewing a master's painting." 

A person on Reddit wrote, "Twice this week I've woken up and there's these goldeny bronze perfect geometrical grid lines in my vision for like 20 seconds and then they disappear once I'm more awake but are there long enough for me to know I'm not dreaming..". Someone replied, "On LSD I saw grid lines everywhere, I would look at an object and see the grid lines of the object's shape. " 

From the DMT Nexus web site: "After several more Adventures, I have gotten rid of the 
fearful aspect of it. Now it's just a repetition of an alien Encounter telling me the world I live in is a matrix type simulation.. I'm trying my best to get passed this conclusion and venture further into the available experience." 

"While this was happening I was feeling so frightened of these entities controlling reality.This was a program being run to upgrade that is it and these alien entities were in control waving and letting me in on the secret.... I came back to live out this "natural life" but I know after this experience I must come to terms with my non existence and to return home for good not being sucked into this game again. "

I found an interesting post on Reddit called "I saw the white light of death": "I was projecting out of body and saw myself being pulled towards this huge and brilliant looking white light. As I came closer I heard a voice say "you are passing over to the afterlife". I am experienced being outside of the body so I was able to stop and move away from the light. The light and voice stopped. At that point I slowly moved forward and the light and voice began again in the exact same fashion. I pulled back and repeated this scenario a few times. It is definitely a
looping computer file. Most people are very confused at death, and it is a very impressive display that certainly tricks everyone, even though it is a Computer Simulated event."


NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE reports are the key to understanding the illusion we live in.

I really believe NDEs are the key to understanding the afterlife. Talk to most any near death experiencer and they will tell you they actually died, and in many cases, their heart had actually stopped and they were rescusitated. So they have seen and experienced at least some of what's on the other side.

There are millions of people who have had near death experiences. There are many commonalities in the experiences such as floating above the body, going through a tunnel to a white light, meeting a being of white light whom some call god, and having a life review. Not every experiencer encountered all these things. In fact, no two experiences are alike. There is a definite subjective nature to the NDE which suggests that at some level the experiencer may be creating the experience with their consciousness. NDErs say the soul is a translucent liquid light and that they can travel anywhere instantaneously by thought, intent or desire. They can manifest objects with their consciousness. But there is an element of illusion to it all.

NDERF.org is a fantastic website which contains a database of over 4000 near death experiences. I have found some startling experiences.


Some liken this existence to a prison:

Anyway, as I came back and entered my body I was overcome with the limitations of life. How seeing, tasting, feeling, hearing and smelling were nothing compared to the freedom of being without a body and how literally trapped I felt. It was kind of like being thrown into jail. My spirit was trapped in this gross body. -- Nancy C

I became sullen, serious and fearful. Most of all, I felt an overwhelming loneliness, having glimpsed what true joy and loving connections our souls are meant to have. I felt trapped, still do, in a penitentiary of flesh and bone that imprisons and inhibits our souls. I feel that humans spend most of their lives hoping to find 'true love' and wanting to connect in some way with others. I believe our souls know how it should be. -- Victor B

Here we are limited. The body is a prison and the real world is a nest of germs and filth, of smells and volatile substances that now make me nauseous, but it didn't used to be that way before my experience. -- Maria R

There is such a profound structure to the Universe that cannot be described. I look upon it as Edgar Cayce did the Akashic records, but in my view, it is a giant gigabyte mainframe that can do trillions of bytes per second. It is like a well-run machine that is totally fair and well ordered. -- Ruth


While most NDErs seem to be along for the ride and not in control of the experience, there are several NDErs who were able to stop or alter their experience.

Mellen-Thomas Benedict had an extensive NDE. He said, "As I began to move toward the light, I knew intuitively that if I went to the light, I would be dead. So as I was moving toward the light I said, "Please wait a minute, just hold on a second here. I want to think about this; I would like to talk to you before I go." To my surprise, the entire experience halted at that point. You are indeed in control of your near-death experience. You are not on a roller coaster ride. So my request was honored and I had some conversations with the light. The light kept changing into different figures, like Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, mandalas, archetypal images and signs. I asked the light, "What is going on here? Please, light, clarify yourself for me. I really want to know the reality of the situation." I cannot really say the exact words, because it was sort of telepathy. The light responded. The information transferred to me was that your beliefs shape the kind of feedback you are getting before the light."

Nanci D wrote, "Immediately I was surrounded by an earthen works tunnel in vivid, vibrant color and detail, with the proverbial light at the end. Though the tunnel was just as real as anything I have experienced on Earth, I knew that I was not in a tunnel. So I wasn't fooled by its appearance. Upon realizing that I wasn't 'fooled,' a flood of 'knowings' about manifesting reality inundated my mind. I realized that we all constantly manifest what we call physical reality just by virtue of our thoughts, and that the only reason we are fooled into believing it is real is because of the limitations of human senses. You can imagine how flabbergasted I was by this information, and why I was not inclined to believe it. So I experimented with consciously manifesting some more to test its truth. I proved to myself that we do indeed have the ability to manifest what humans perceive to be physical reality by focusing our attention and intention on doing so."

Another NDEr, Jacob, wrote, "I observed my body as if I was floating above it. I then found myself at the edge of what seemed like a black amphitheater looking out across the universe. There was a vortex of white fire spiraling through space. It was a beautiful sight and looked very much like the electricity coming from a nuclear power generator. There were voices calling me to join this energy. Some voices were familiar, but most were not. I looked at the energy and said firmly, 'NO! I want my own.' No sooner had I thought it, a very slim pillar of white fire appeared a distance from the large one. I said with satisfaction, 'That is mine.' "

[Matt S: I saw a tube projecting up at about a 45 degree angle, much like a pipe in the ground..........above it, approx two mouth diameters away were TWO very bright white lights.......these lights pivoted towards a "target soul" ascending the tunnel, and paused for a few seconds while the soul entered the light.........the light would then pivot like a searchlight towards another soul and pause again while the soul entered the light......Both lights were identical and moved similar, but independently......I knew that those were souls entering the light"

Julian D: It was a place, a domain that I knew right away was a transfer station - a place where beings go when moving between realms. It was like a city of crystal structures and verdant green trees and vegetation. I went into a huge, huge beyond comprehension, perhaps dome-like structure where one would go to meet with enormous beings of light/energy/color to do the life review.]

At the local IANDS near death support group I met a near death experiencer who met the Demiurge and told me he was near the moon and he also mentioned aliens. His experience involves going out in space to a white cube of light which he calls "spaceship heaven". The being of light asked him if he had learned enough about love. He answered he had never been married or had children and -- boom -- next thing he knows he finds himself in line to go back to Earth. Right before he gets to Earth -- WHAM -- he is stopped by a serious being which he associates with the Demiurge.
Before he was allowed to come back he had to make a bunch of contractual agreements consisting of IF-THEN statements which could result in anywhere from a Plan A life if everyone upheld their agreements, including him, to a Plan Z life. This being was trying to show why his system is better than the Light's and was aiming to maintain a balance of 2/3 light and 1/3 dark.

[There are some noticeable contradictions in the overall body of NDE reports. Some say Jesus had blue eyes, others brown and one said he had green eyes. Some say he had blonde hair, others white. One person said Jesus showed her the wounds in his hands while another person said they learned Jesus did not die on the cross... and others said he did. Some say Jesus and God are the same personage while others said no. Some say there is no hell or evil while others were shown hell and evil and say they know it exists.

The vast majority say we judge ourselves while others were clearly judged by God or a Council of Beings -- in courtrooms. One person said they knew or learned there is no reincarnation while many others learned of multiple lives they had lived. Most say we have free will yet many were literally forced to come back to Earth against their will, or persuaded to come back after being shown family members that needed their help. Some were asked to do it as a favor and told they were very special or that they were the only ones who could do it.]


The topic of soul contracts is a very important one as it seems they need our consent and we have to willingly agree to a contract before coming to Earth. At death, that is once our silver cord has been severed, our contract should no longer apply and they will need to convince us to take on a new contract. They will try to convince us that we need to learn more and that it is necessary. We may also be able to terminate any contracts we currently have as they were formed under lies and deception, and thus null and void.

Marie W: We had to go to the council meeting... They turned to me and told me that if I would agree to take on this new contract, I had to understand that I had been dead a long time by earth time and had already ascended... They told me, 'I will suffer as any human woman who had my degree of traumatic death would suffer, but my healing would be greatly aided and accelerated through them if I would agree to the terms.' Many discussions went around the council, the Masters. Then they turned to me. Ultimately, I agreed.

Rachel E: Yes, life can only exist if there is death. Without death, there can be no life. So, we enter a contract with G*d. And the terms and conditions include difficulties, challenges and definite hardships. That is the experience we all signed up for.

Matt S: We ask to be born and we enter into a contract. We come to earth with a purpose. On the other side, it is all that matters: did we accomplish that mission or not? We are not judged by anyone but we feel like a failure if we realize we did not accomplish the mission we incarnated for. " end-quote]

The light beings appear to use many tactics such as fear, guilt. love and flattery in order to manipulate us into doing what they want.

Sometimes they are told they have a very important mission:
Michael D: I didn't seem to fully understand what she was telling me. But, I enjoyed the loving feeling she was giving me. I seem to be decoding and understanding what she told me more as time goes by. I will try to put into words what she told me. She told me that I was very special. She told me that I had a very important task to fulfill in this life." end-quote

Charles M: "I observed him as he was so surely to hold on to the door knob of this particular room door as he came out backwards and notice his countenance having what appeared to be a long robe on which you could clearly looked through him and the gold belt he had on plus looking at his face which scared the living crap out of me,.............. he had a face of a ............lion. " end-quote

There is one account from Mary D which was labeled as a spiritually transformative experience. But it had most the same elements of an advanced NDE: the light, love and telepathic communicaton with beings. She said she experienced "Immense Love" and " saw a beam of white" that "came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder"..."One responding to my unasked question who are you? 'God of Abraham'." - end quote

This man named Israel says that an angel named Lamdiel explained to him the evolution of our planet and that this wonderful evolution means all humans are going to be bound within some superbeing, the being who is the hateful god of the Old Testament: " I was excited. Who is that giant spirit? I felt as if my heart were racing although I was in my astral body. The angel smiled, then slowly answered my question. 'It is going to be a strong, huge, high intensity spirit from the third level of existence, from the forces level. That spirit is going to
bond Himself with all of humanity on the planet Earth. It will create a huge new entity--one that will improve your lives tremendously and forever. This huge spirit is quite well known to humanity on Earth. Many people, unknowingly, already are craving to bond with Him. They consciously pray for His help, and love Him. In some part of their subconscious minds all people on Earth already know it. And whether they believe in any established religion or not, in times of great need most humans recognize His existence. They call him: God, Elohim, Yahave, Allah, the Heavenly Father, and many other names." end-quote

[Another fascinating experience was reported by Gary who saw lots of technology in the place he went to and that when he saw the movie The Matrix he had to get up and leave because it was so eerily reminiscent of his NDE. He writes, "People should be studying NDE's and finding out why we're trapped in these inferior bodies." On his form he was asked the question "What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?" He pleaded, "Find out what is happening."

Near death experiencer Paul said: "Religions teach of a false god that is not the true God of the afterlife, but probably a demonic entity in itself, who they pose as the true God... THIS IS NOT GOD! This is the description of fear and darkness. God is not a demanding blood thirsty bi-polar control freak bent on balancing some 'sin balance sheet'... Talk about a tormenting trap. This is spiritual enslavement, that forces one to live in an altered state of consciousness, as well as a spiritual cesspool of confusion.]" -- end quote

This soul was told they were the only one that could do whatever it was that needed to be done: "Why me?" I said... 'It' said to me with a sad reply, "Your the only one that I have found strong enough to deal with this pain, You share the same feelings that I have felt, the feeling of loneliness, the feeling of being not noticed, that's why I have chosen you, From here on out you will never forget this moment, and others will never realize the true meaning to life, only you will understand life and only you can hold my existence."

Here is another person who was told that no else could do it what needed to be done:You have a mission to do on the Earth and you must do it. No one else can do it but you.' I thought about it and I said, 'Ok. I'll do it.' My mission is basically to share my story down here on the Earth, to tell everybody that they are love too."

Mukurarinda: He told me:'' I want you to go back on earth; there is something I want you to do, after you will finish it you will come back here in heaven and live here forever.'' I said: No, I want to stay here.'' He said, No'', just go back, I said NO'' I want to stay here, till He spoke in a cool voice and convinced me to go back on earth. " end-quote

Michael D: I didn't seem to fully understand what she was telling me. But, I enjoyed the loving feeling she was giving me... She told me that I was very special. She told me that I had a very important task to fulfill in this life." end-quote

"Boldly I came before the throne and started out by reminding God what a great life of love, worship, and sacrifice I had lived for him. When I had completed my request, I heard the real, audible voice of God as God answered me. The tone of his anger knocked me on my face as God proceeded to tell me just what kind of life I had really lived. " -- Howard P

I found myself suddenly 'very high up' in a bright white room. There were several beings there. There was a being on a throne, that I was almost directly in front of, that was the only one sitting down. I was forced on my hands and knees, and couldn't move or look around except with my eyes. and I thought they were aliens. They were very white or 'chalky' looking At first, I believed, from their color, that they were possibly the 'gray aliens'. But then I believed they were gods or religious-type beings, because of the set-up of there being a throne in the room. The room was very bright white, and they were wearing robes... I do not necessarily view this being on the throne as the Big G: god, which/who I feel is probably a different sort of abstract and a more universal, non-human consciousness. -- SJ

Why would a light being that can take any form it wants need to sit on a throne or even sit at all? Does he get tired from standing too long? lol Seems a bit of a power trip and why would god need to be worshipped? A throne is associated on earth with royalty (kings and queens) and rulers or to authority.

Robert B: "This first being appeared to be the Virgin Mary. Only after asking, "Are you truly the Virgin Mary it instantly manifested true identity."


A woman, Stephanie, recently emailed me about her epic NDE where she experienced what she called an archon and seven evil entities that tormented her. She submitted her experience to NDERF.org which validated that it was indeed an NDE. It's been over a month and they still have not posted it on their website. In her email she wrote:


"I had an atypical NDE earlier this year and came back with totally changed ideas about what is actually true. My belief system prior was no frills Humanist Taoist/Buddhist. What actually seems to be true is so far from that, so much more like the mythic dramas, it's simply mind boggling!....


Now, I am leaning strongly toward Gnosticism which is about as far from my former austere, minimalistic beliefs as I could get. That YHWH might be real and is actually the jerk the bible demonstrates him to be... and he and his pals really are animal-headed beings who might have aided in our development, with dramatic conflicts and stories similar to those of the Greco-Roman gods I condescendingly viewed as amusing myths... Uhhhh, I am speechless.....


I will try to summarize. I was judged by the demiurge and left to his low-vibrational underlings who tormented me horrifically for what seemed like ages in another dimension that was like an empty void. I was intervened for by The Mother. Isis, Maa, Sophia, Ninhursag all fit. She is purer, loving, compassionate, alien, immense, concerned, dismayed, black like the void of space, powerful, amazing. To say that I never saw Her coming is a vast understatement, as literally nothing in my belief system prepared me for this NDE. It left me with PTSD symptoms for a while and is something I am still trying to fit into my world in some sensible way...


I was aware of an evil entity who was not present, his underlings who tortured me, and The Great Mother whno intervened for me... I believe She has had many names but the ones that feels most true to me are Maa, and Aditi, though most would call her Durga or Mary....

On the form she submitted to NDERF she wrote:

"I cannot explain it because it was not part of my belief system at all prior to this, but I believed him to be an archon. I believe the color that flashed was green, though I am not certain of this. I saw and sensed him, and he and everything to do with him was a pinkish-purple so that is probably why that color is at the forefront of this memory of the flash of light that happened at the same time as the cracking sound. I sensed that he was very powerful but absent; he had delegated this to underlings which were terrible, low vibrational beings who hate everything. After the crack and flash of light I was in a void- like colorless grey place. The color that flashed wasnt what he could work with, but I was still in their hands, trapped there. I was floating on my back in that void, surrounded by 7 or more low entities. They tormented me with pain, crushing, taunting, horrible emotional energy attack. Throughout the experience I wanted to flee, resist them, or escape even though there was no way for me to even try do so. They had me. All I could do was suffer and there are no words to describe how terrible this was. In addition to being in horrible torment I felt that it was a complete injustice, that I did not deserve this, that I did not belong there. I felt like these entities were wrong in every possible way and I didn't understand why they had me. I am a good person who genuinely tries to grow and help others. This all sounds so bizarre as I write it but I'm going to share everything I can remember even so. I had a sense that he was almost recruiting, that who I am and what was happening to me had somehow attracted his attention, and that he had an opportunity to snag me, so he did. Since I wasn't someone he could use I was just left to these awful beings. There phases that I can remember with different types of physical torment, and always along with this was the taunting and emotional/ energetic attack. There was an element of life review in this, though it seemed like complete hogwash to me. These low creatures hated everything and had no concept of good and bad, they simply wanted to hurt me as much as possible. It felt completely unjust and I refused to accept that I was deserving of this. In the first months afterward I tried not to think about it at all because if I did the emotion and memories of it were so powerful it was like it was happening again, like what those with PTSD describe. I remember feeling I was being crushed between two surfaces, wires being wrapped around my body and the flesh and skin being flayed off, always while being taunted and mocked. It seemed almost like tests. I was not always certain what I did or didn't do that would end one of these awful tests but there would be times that it would ease and the low entities would become angry and complain and whine about starting again. I believe now that it was primarily that I didn’t accept their torment or judgement as being correct that seemed to eventually stop it. Their voices were buzzing and hollow and awful. I began to sense a female presence that for a time I assumed must be one of them. Her presence became more and more pronounced and the intervals between the torment became longer, and I sensed her as being exceptionally loving. In spite of her loving presence I was still utterly tormented. It is interesting to me now that it literally never occurred to me to ask anyone or anything for help, not once. I wish that I had! At one point during this torment the beings were telling me I was a bad person and mentally I was simply rejecting their judgement, nope, wrong again low creatures! I rejected their judgements of me which all seemed totally false, and I felt more than heard her decision to lift me out of this. She intervened for me, they were not able to hold me. One of the low entities complained 'Why did you start us up, then?' in anger that they would not get to keep me. This still interests me, that it said this and at the time I felt an understanding that there is nothing that is truly outside of Her, not even these low beings. I do not think she set them on me, though at the same time, everything happens for us to grow. I was still floating in this no-place but the torment stopped. I was still filled with a great deal of distress, anguish. This experience was horrific on a level that is hard for me to even comprehend now, the memories of it have faded greatly. My sense of the flow of time changed a bit at this point. The previous part had seemed stretched and slow and to drag on for an eternity. Time seemed to open up more like normal and as I gradually emerged from this no-place, dimension, pocket of existance."


She explained to me in her emails:

"I sensed Her and the truths of the Universe more fully, and I felt that we were against a backdrop of the entirety of the manifested Universe. She is The Mother. The language I want to use for her is not the way I normally speak. She is cloaked in stars. She is utterly, truly purely loving and this love is unconditional. I sensed her as being black, like the void of space, and lit with stars. Immense, though concepts like size seemed totally irrelevant. She is alien in some way that was completely outside our normal cultural concept of what that word means. She is not terrestrial, not “of” this planet, She is the spiritual mother of this planet and we are Her beloved children....

Wayne: Do you think this being was the Demiurge? Could you see what he/it looked like?

"When the loud crack sound happened I saw a flash of him. What I saw was a black background with a lazer-like detailed purple-pink on black image of a very large male being seen from below, with what I suppose is reversed perspective. It was only a flash but it was a very strong image. I was seeing his standing, very upright, powerful form from below and the perspective of the image of him growing larger the further he was from me. He was ripped, but not bulky. I didn’t see hair, just the outline of him looking up, the line of his jaw from below, and again the perspective stood out to me as accentuating his size and importance. He is humanoid but not human. He is alien. I had a sense that he was in some way reptile-like, he had no wings but I believe he had a large muscular tail. I didn’t see feet or knees, I saw him from the thigh area up viewed from below. I felt he was huge, important, I was not worth his attention. It is hard to describe how a lot of information can be received inexplicably, in less than an instant in the flash of his image I felt I knew he was an archon. Prior to this experience if you had asked me what an archon was I would have told you they are extraplanar, lawful good entities from a Dungeons and Dragons perspective (I am a geek J) or I would have said they are the opposite of an archangel such as Gabriel. These definitions are not what I sensed at all, though. I felt the understanding that he was an archon and what that meant to me in that instant is that he was one of possibly many very powerful and malevolent entities with nothing like good intentions for humanity. I saw his image flash again later on during the timeless torture when I remember trying so hard to struggle or resist and it was so awful and I screamed in my mind why is this happening to me. His image flashed again and the low beings intensified their taunting and energy attack saying things such as I am bad, selfish, weak, unworthy.

Do I think he is the demiurge now? I don’t know. He could be, or he could be one who works with or for him, or even have nothing to do with them. I did not sense any good in him, nothing like warmth or light in him so perhaps he cannot have been that one. I understand that the demiurge at least does or allows some good. This being was malevolent and ruthless.

His purposes are destructive, pain and suffering and winning. (Winning what? I don’t know.) I am reaching & guessing here but maybe because I was unaffiliated because of my prior belief system he could snag me. Technically by the worlds belief systems I should be a bad person if I don’t pray or believe in a god or gods but I’m not evil, I wont serve evil, so while he could trap me, he could not use me. The only thing I understood as a part of the experience was that he had a chance to snag me but I didn’t meet his needs. A small, small portion of his attention went toward this, barely enough intention to make it happen, and he simply left me in that space for his low vibrational beings to play with, maybe even feed on. He gave this less attention or concern than we’d give to brushing an ant off our pant leg at a picnic.

They called me weak, worthless, bad, they laughed at me. Their taunts were childish and simplistic but shaming. “You are weak.” “You should have given that person (insert topic here).” “No wonder you are here, you are so bad (and they would replay some images or thoughts from my past).” Examples of things they used as topics or scenarios were things I might have questioned in myself or felt a flash of guilt about, even if I actually had not done anything wrong. Examples being something like being asked to do something and saying no, when saying yes was actually a bad idea. The sort of thing like feeling bad for not being a pushover or doing something for someone who actually should do it for themselves. They were only focused on the emotion evoked, they had no understanding of wisdom or what true compassion looks like. I hope this makes sense...

They were so bad, wrong, low and the things they judged me for were memories where I felt any guilt of any sort, even if on an intellectual level I knew that the decision I did was actually the right decision. It was like they read my mind and history but had no understanding.

Wayne: I wonder if despite her loving presence if she isn't still an archon also.

"It is possible, although she had power over them all, and I did not have any sense that she was in the least concerned with him. I did sense dismay during my experience. That she wants a compassionate outcome for us. That she isn’t sure what to do about us or for us.

So do you feel like the archons are part of her system and she allows the archons to attack us in order to have us grow in some way, perhaps spiritually?
I am not sure. I think she sees that we grow and learn on Earth but that we still suffer terribly, do harm to ourselves and others. She may be of the same sort of being as the other one I sensed but there were also distinct differences. He was absolutely ruthless, serious, arrogant. I sensed nothing of the light or of the stuff of the soul in him. In her I sensed that although she is alien to me in her being and thinking and nature, she is far purer, light, compassion."

Wayne: Did you see what she looked like? If so, can you describe it?

"I’m going to attach an image from a bookmark that comes very close. More than seeing her I had a sense of her. The idea that she is black has nothing to do with race, it is the black of the void. She isn’t limited to that, though. She is humanoid, I had a sense of immensity but I think her physical being has an Egyptian flavor to it. I believe she and this other being can present themselves pretty much as they wish. A person’s beliefs will filter what they perceive to a large extent and they may even use that intentionally. I believe I sensed them very close to what they actually are.

I want to be really clear that no title other than The Mother or possibly The Grand Mother or Great Mother were a part of my understanding during this experience. The most ancient and primitive descriptions I have read in the time since this experience seem to align with her best. Ninhursag, Maa, Aditi and Sophia have the least amounts of cultural acratia and are closer to her true nature. She shows herself more often and intervenes more often than is credited and usually she is referred to by those who see her as Mary. But she is no young woman who got pregnant and gave virginal birth to the Christian Jesus; that’s all story. This being is not human but I felt she views us as her children.

I want to describe the low entities, too. They were like a fishbelly greyish dirty white. They actually reminded me of the demons shown in the movie Constantine, though they did not have the heads like anencephalic babies. Most of them had relatively normal round heads and almost monkey-like faces, but only one of them was not in some way misshapen. He seemed to be the leader of them to some extent, spoke the most, complained the most when they had to stop. The others had faces that were not quite right, and parts of their bodies were not fully defined or formed. They were small, like the size of 5 year olds, skinnier, and some of them used energy and telepathy and did not speak words.

"He is humanoid but not human. He is alien. I had a sense that he was in some way reptile-like, he had no wings but I believe he had a large muscular tail. I didn’t see feet or knees, I saw him from the thigh area up viewed from below. I felt he was huge, important, I was not worth his attention. "...

I did not mention this, but the negative entities seemed to me to be somehow spider like, even though this was not a physical or appearance-based impression at all. I cannot say why I felt they were spider -like, especially her in some way. The male malevolent entity seemed more reptile-like or even better, humanoid serpentine somehow....

I did not get the feeling that he was Satan or Lucifer or someone delegated to torment souls. He caught me to see if he could use me, and leaving me for his minions did not feel purposeful but rather like I was a treat for them. That sounds so weird!! He snagged me then cast me aside. He wants to win something and has plans but I don't know what that means. I've been trying to think how I can describe the look of his tail, I am not sure it was a tail, it was very thick and I suppose it was almost serpentine, because though I had the impression he had legs I didn't see legs. Was it really a tail or the thick coil of a serpentine lower body? I am not sure...


I vaguely could see my own arms or body if I looked around but I couldn't move my head much. I wasn't tied, just immobile and floating though I don't know how. Not on a table or with chains, just floating in that void place unable to move. Though it was a place devoid of form the 7 or so nasty low beings were around me in a circle as though I was laying on a solid surface, even though there were no surfaces. It's interesting that flashes of memory come back to me as i think about your questions. I remember knowing things during the torment, for example I saw lavender and amethyst and one of my friends was setting up a grid to send me healing energy, Reiki.

Do you think she is responsible for creating this mess and is still trying to correct her mistake, but doesn't know how?

>That feels true to me. I don't think it was intentional if that was the case. I have a strong true-false gut feeling about some things after this experience, though I can't say why. I can read or hear certain things and feel the rightness or wrongness of them.

"I sensed Her and the truths of the Universe more fully...."

Are you able to recall any of these truths now that you are back on Earth or did the fall in frequency cause you to forget?

>When I spoke about the universe perfect as it is, the feelings of connectedness and love, the beauty and amazingness of all that is, these are the truths of universe to which I was referring. I do not want to minimize this understanding in any way because it's a gorgeous thing you experience. I have felt this in the past and though connecting to that again was wonderful it was her loving presence that was more astonishing. That something like her existed was totally unexpected to me. I feel like she told me more, showed me more, but I do not remember...

It was a knowing that came to me when I was with her against the backdrop of the void and stars. She didn't speak in words, telepathy and empathy. The horror of the tormenting experience was very strong even then, and it remained with me, too. The love I felt from her and for her was wonderful and unconditional, so unlike my perception of the Christian religion. That unconditional love stayed with me, too. I do question her in spite of this love, even now. That's a bit hard to talk about. It seems ungrateful given that she brought me out. I think I trust her but I suppose I am not certain. There seem to be so many layers of deception, Wayne. I don't mean to go too far off topic, but I was a Reiki master prior to this and have since revoked all agreements that are not in the true interest of my higher self and the highest good. My experience of energy has changed since I did that and to me that seems sufficient to cast doubt upon Reiki. To whom do I pray, and who should I trust now? She brought me out of the worst torment imaginable and I never want to seem ungrateful. But is she the highest good? Is she our creator? Are they? And if so, do we owe them anything? Would you inhibit your children or cause them to suffer? I would not....

The knowing I had when his image flashed was that he is an archon. What IS an archon, really? If they are the Sumerian gods, the Hindu Pantheon, Watchers or Annunaki they seem to have pretty varied forms, and to be inconsistent and capricious with regard to how they conduct themselves. They seem alien....

If he was an archon, which one? Is he the demiurge or one of his cohorts? He seemed serious, ruthless, he had plans, he wanted me to feel as insignificant as possible and like I was less than an ant to him. I rejected that. I was absolutely trapped and if there was a way to escape, I didnt know it. But I still rejected it, I didn't think any of it was valid or right. I had a hard time putting all of this into words, especially at the beginning when I was still so ill but when I spoke about him and the low entities all I could say was that I knew "they were complete bullshit". It seems like an odd thing to say after such a magnificently horrific and life changing experience, but there it is. I didn't put this into my NDE and I struggled with sharing it with you, and how to do so. It feels important. It was one of the strongest elements of my NDE overall. It is indelicate, it is not flowery language, but it is exactly what I felt. He is serious, oh-so powerful with his plans, we are insignificant and only of value if he can use us: Total bullshit. I am bad, selfish, worthless and deserving of torment: Bullshit! The extent to which she might also be bullshit, I am not sure but she seems more real, more complete, more whole than the others and I did not react to anything she shared with me with my knee-jerk "this is bullshit" response. I did and still do feel suspicion about whether or not she is truly good for us even though I know she is good. I hope this makes some kind of sense. The fact that I suffered such soul wrenching torment by total B.S. beings for total B.S. reasons made it all even more traumatic. How is it that we can be entrapped in such a nonsensical and unjust system?

When I say they are alien, I don't mean they are BEMs or anal probe wielding lanky dudes in black pajamas. No disrespect to those who have experienced such things. I mean that they are not from here, not OF this planet or plane of existence and that their ways and even the nature of their thoughts are very different from ours. He is missing something, Wayne. There is an absence in him, something wrong about him. The thing that is missing from him is not missing from her. She has it, she is pure, she may have messed up in some way but she is unconditionally loving in a manner that was and still is difficult for me to comprehend. We have it, too. He doesn't and by contrast, his ruthless arrogance is even more glaring and ugly. I perceive this lack as being malevolent; to be totally devoid of love and compassion is to be malevolent. He had nothing of the playful trickster in him, he is serious and intent. He gave me no impression that I am bad and being taught a lesson, rather that I was not of use to him at this particular moment and his underlings could have fun with me... or not, it was not important. To me, this disregard and lack of caring make him evil especially if he is laying plans, doing things, using living beings so carelessly. I remember every single wasp I have ever killed. I try to avoid it, it MATTERS to me. There is no such thing as something insignificant. Everything is significant, everything is the same thing! We are all made of the same thing, everything matters. He should not be able to do these things.

How can this be stopped? How can I help? There is nothing that matters more. We are FAR from useless or bad beings, we have something wonderful that he doesn't have access to from within himself. He is not fit to judge, use, limit or control us. We are so much more and should be free. "


Another experience I recently received was a message a listener received during a dream. They wrote, "It began in the summer of 2016, I cannot remember the exact day or month. During this time I had already begun reading heavily into near death accounts and religions such as Islam, Christianity and Hinduism. One night I was asleep and suddenly I found myself having this dream in this place (the astral plane). The setting involved a religious mass, with about 4 catholic priests ( I could tell by their clothes), me and about 10 other people gathering to listen. One of the priests spoke out to us and told us to sit for the mass. Straight away, I did not like this because I felt that It was some kind of mind control game as I was quite sceptical of the whole thing. So I refused to sit down at first, but then I did so on MY OWN FREE WILL.

As this religious sermon began, something strange happened. I caught one of these priests doing strange hand gestures who was hiding behind another priest. I instantly knew that he was performing a kind of black magic spell on the people that where there to manipulate them. As he made eye contact with me, he knew I had noticed what he was doing so he turned his attention and spell on me and as he did this, I felt a slight distortion of my own energy as if it was weakening, I felt it was paralysing me, but it did not work for long because I refused. I resisted his spell with my mind. My will was simply too strong to let that happen. While he was attempting this spell, he began speaking but I could hear his voice suddenly diminish and began to sound squeaky, a sign that I was defeating him and then he stopped.

I was then observing the environment of this setting where I then caught the attention of this other priest.

He came up to me, pointing his finger, and in my native language he said to me 'THIS IS AN ACT OF CHARITY!'

My spirit or intuition knew that he was lying. It was an attempt to mind control me! - The dream ended here and I suddenly woke up.

As I looked at my phone clock, the time was 4:44 am (numerology). Suddenly I heard a loud noise on the floor, which shocked me and as I looked towards the floor, it was the holy picture I had hanging up near my bed. As I picked it up, there was the face of Jesus on it with the words 'have courage, get up and walk'. I was already standing and awake, ironically.

The message I learnt from this dream was that there is mass brainwashing going on spewing from the astral realm straight into the minds of us here on earth. Even though the holy picture tried to get my attention, I still felt somewhat a bit discouraged..."

The light is described as being brighter than the sun. It is often said to be cloudy or misty. There is an overwhelming sense of interconnectedness and the most wonderful feeling of love and euphoria. Many, if not most, say the Light being is God and that it is a collective soul, all our souls combined. Some talk about being absorbed into the light or merging with it. Some say they felt they would lose their identity yet others say it is like being a drop of water in the ocean. Many state all knowledge of the universe and wisdom is readily available there in a collective pool, but that we need to come to Earth to learn lessons and evolve. That really is the crux of the matter, whether we are Sovereign, individual spirits or whether we are part of a larger collective being which can send us on countless missions to Earth and other systems to learn and evolve.

Here are a few NDEs about the Light:
" Upon seeing the shimmering Light that is indescribably beautiful, I had a revelation. This Light is not, in the strictest sense, "God" in the traditional meaning of the bibles of various religions, including Christianity. This Light, which is an energy gestalt, is an aggregation of many multitudes of immortal souls from all walks of life, e.g., plants, mammals, fish, and is collectively a life-force. This Light is a life force from which all life is originated. It is neither a single entity, for each immortal soul is part of "God," nor multiple entities, for each immortal soul is but a part of the collective entity" -- August

Ross D: my granddad turns up and told me I had to go back I said no way in the world am I going back there you've got to be joking then two other blokes turn up and they had a sort of talk about it Anyway they kept hassling me to go back in the end they said there is something you have got to do but they wouldn't tell me what that was, I think they tricked me because as soon as I thought about going back I was back."

Edie F: But when I got to the round circle at the end of the tunnel where I would have entered into the light, I got a big surprise. Standing in the circle with legs apart and arms reaching out toward me was a very bright multi-colored figure, almost like a cartoon character and similar to the Joker on a deck of playing cards, but with a big smile that for some reason was more comforting and gentle than scary. He gently caught me in his arms and said to me, "Back to the womb," as he turned me around and gently tossed me back down the tunnel." end-quote

Guenter W: " My whole soul or being was immersed in this love. He lifted me up and gave me a kiss on my mouth. This being of light loved me deeply, infinitely deeply, and more and more intensively. I was happy! I could have stayed in this beam of love forever. Gradually the loving became weaker and I felt that something was wrong with me -- something that made it very difficult for the light to continue with his love. He was trying not to tell me why. Finally, however, he was not able to keep it up any longer and he quickly said, ‗You have a smelly breath. You need a bath.‘
Although I could not comprehend the reason, I was willing to do what the being of light wanted me to do. I was lifted up and put into a red light. After some time, however, I realized that I was tossed about rather rigorously. It was like being in a washing machine. I cried, ‗I think that is enough!‘ Immediately, I was lowered down and the love and the warmth were switched off, but I still remained in this beam (or sphere). Suddenly the sun disappeared and I saw a moon. I was in a different world."

Marta Y: " The little that at this time I remember having understood included the following: 'Like all other beings, you are living in order to accomplish a mission, and you are not doing this. You must change you way of living, you are supposed to help many other beings, and you are not doing so. You have to stop eating meat, as no one who eats meat can remain here.' "

[This soul was told they were the only one that could do whatever it was that needed to be done: "Why me?" I said... 'It' said to me with a sad reply, "Your the only one that I have found strong enough to deal with this pain, You share the same feelings that I have felt, the feeling of loneliness, the feeling of being not noticed, that's why I have chosen you, From here on out you will never forget this moment, and others will never realize the true meaning to life, only you will understand life and only you can hold my existence."

Here is another person who was told that no else could do it what needed to be done: I asked and I said, 'I‘d like to stay.' They said, 'Maybe another time, but not now. You have a mission to do on the Earth and you must do it. No one else can do it but you.' I thought about it and I said, 'Ok. I‘ll do it.' My mission is basically to share my story down here on the Earth, to tell everybody that they are love too.

Mukurarinda: He told me:'' I want you to go back on earth; there is something I want you to do, after you will finish it you will come back here in heaven and live here forever.'' I said: No, I want to stay here.'' He said, No'', just go back, I said NO'' I want to stay here, till He spoke in a cool voice and convinced me to go back on earth. " end-quote]

Here are some interesting quotes I recently found.

"It was so beautiful that I did not want to come back, but was told that I had to return." -- Brian C

"Thus, I asked to meet God to decide with Him what I could do to serve His cause and she told me that God was not someone we could meet; we wouldn’t bear the vision. But He is an energy that we can feel and see as a light of variable intensity depending of one’s heart’s purity. " -- Kolleen

Cynthia Y​ was asked, "Did you see an unearthly light? She answered, "Yes Pinpoint. The creator's thought. "

There is another realm of dimension, we are living spirits in a world that appears to be real but it is not our home, we are here to execute the Will of the Creator. -- Janice G

It seemed that the point in all this was the fact that we co-create with the Light...and we are also part of the Light. Furthermore, no matter what happens...the Light Source will always be in control...and be there to see things through...despite any shortcomings on our part as souls. How auspicious it is, then, to realize that, as souls, we are a part of all creation and take part in the actual creative process thereof!
-- Juliet N


Source is the source, the ONE infinite consciousness. Source has one desire, to know itself. Who am I? Source cannot know itself unless it divides itself into two, thus having another perspective to see itself from. This is where polarity and expansion cycles into eternity. -- Robyn


My first question was 'Is this heaven?'

'It can be, if that's what you want. It can be Hell, as well, if that's what you believe. This reality is an extension of you, instantly realized and formed. You always create your own reality, no matter where you find yourself, for we are all co-creators.'

'Where is God? I don't see him.' I asked. They became visibly amused, like they were snickering at my question under their breath.

'How can you see that which you are yourself a part of? We are all expressions of God. When you see with your eyes, you see through the eyes of God and he experiences reality through yours. When you speak to God, you speak to yourself. We are one and the same, there is no division or separation. You can no more 'see' God than your hand can see you, for it is a part of you and functions because of you and for your purposes, as well as its own. There is no separation. Any that seems to exist is an illusion. The light that surrounds us here is God. It is our source of being and is given freely to all.'
​-- Richard L​



This one is from Nanci D and closely resembles what I have come to believe:

"It became excruciatingly clear to me that the whole of our universe transpires exclusively within the mind of Source. There is only one being in our universe - Source. All things that we perceive as physical reality are really thoughts manifested by Source within its own Energy field. And, most importantly, none of it ever leaves the Source. So, I intimately experienced the 'knowing' that I am literally part of Source's thoughts, and the illusion that I am separate from it is a gift from Source to itself in order that Source might fully explore its own personality and creativity." end-quote

She also said,"It is my understanding that what transpired during my NDE is the ―real‖ reality. Life as a human is more like a dream, role in a play, virtual reality game, character in a drama, etc. though these words fall far short of actual explanation." 

David J said, "I asked him what the meaning of life is. He told me 'for the entertainment of the spirit realm'." 

Mira S: "I realized that the real goal of the mind created ‗life game‘ in life, was to remove the veil of delusion and ignorance and reach the Ultimate Truth of one's reality in life itself. " 

It seems as though we are living in a reality television show or movie. A cosmic play or divine drama. The True Man show. It has all the elements of a movie. A twisting plot. Drama, lots of drama. Especially conflict which any scriptwriter will tell you is absolutely necessary. And it seems as if we are being watched.

Fred B had a series of NDEs while using ketamine. Each time he was able to see further into the experience until he was able to see through the illusion and realized he was sitting in a moving chair and part of a cinema or theatre production being cheered on. He wrote: "We exist somewhere in a system where humans have a purpose to produce energy. We are connected to a 'Matrix' computer to artificially create universes within our brains and therefore produce energy to power a system. People in this alternate universe are watching our lie on Earth, as we would watch a reality television show. I could see that we exist in many many copies in many universes. But the origin of it all would be a great laboratory, somewhere in a mountain setting, where humans would be sleeping in little boxes, connected to a 'matrix' kind of system, to produce energy." end-quote

The crux of the matter seems to be whether or not we really are a collective of oversouls or higher selves... or if the collective is trying to grow more powerful by seducing us sovereign beings into its field.

NDErs say we are all one and we are all god, etc and that we are a collective soul which has access to all knowledge and wisdom that we have learned while we come to earth.... and we come to earth to learn supposedly so we all have access to the experience. We have 7 billions souls on the planet. How many souls have there been in history? Billions and billions if not trillions of souls.... and we still haven't learned enough about love yet or whatever it is we are supposed to learn? I propose the idea that pain and suffering in order to pay back karmic debts or to learn lessons is not a necessary evil, but is just plain evil. Most prefer to believe a beautiful lie rather than face an ugly truth.
How many lives does it take a COLLECTIVE to learn, especially a COLLECTIVE is that is supposed to be God? And NDERs are very rarely ever told what their mission is.

Similarly, here on Earth Love is only experienced as an emotion and the result of chemicals. There is a difference between what we think of as romantic love and that which describes empathy, compassion, kindness and mercy. Also, NDErs claim they know everything or have access to all knowledge while in the Light yet say we are here on earth to learn. Why would we need to come to Earth to learn if knowledge is so readily available there?

Robert Monroe as a pioneer of out of body eperiences was one of first to talk extensively about them, having written three books on the subject and running the Monroe Institute which teaches people how to have them.

Loosh is a term Robert Monroe coined.

He wrote, "From experience, the Collectors have evolved an entire technology with
complementary tools for the harvesting of Loosh from the Type 4M units.
The most common have been named love, friendship, family, greed, hate,
pain, guilt, disease, pride, ambition, ownership, possession, sacrifice—and
on a larger scale, nations, provincialism, wars, famine, religion, machines,
freedom, industry, trade, to list a few. Loosh production is higher than
ever before . .

... We were indeed producing Something of Value. Loosh... Loosh, an energy generated by all organic life in varying degrees of purity, the clearest and most potent coming from humans—engendered by human activity which triggers emotion, the highest of such emotions being—love? Is love loosh? ...

Using the same stuff—interactive experience— one began to learn to express anger, pain, fear, and all the rest, and finally —hopefully, if you passed the course—a special energy waveform labeled love.

Yet we don't really know what it is... To learn to be high-quality loosh/love producers...and those who possess Loosh find it vital for whatever it is used for.

Faced with this question of supply and demand Someone decided to produce it artificially, so to speak, rather than search for it in its natural form. He decided to build a Garden and grow Loosh ...

If a smart transmitter propagates certain waves, they can resonate with other related vibrations of like kind to form a multiple pattern which if thought of as light—would be: white! So in and of itself, you don't have to be the end-product antenna or transducer, just one of the oscillators. You may never display actual loosh radiation, but you have a vital part in its production......"

He wrote, "It must be quite a place to handle that much loosh, this Somewhere. It would fall neatly into many concepts of heaven.... "

Monroe also mentioned an emitter which generates this hologram we live in. He wrote, "The Aperture is just ahead. It will open soon. Beside it you can perceive the Emitter for the energy beam that creates what you call the dream... The hologram . .." end quote 

I saw a post on Reddit which touched on Robert Monroe's concept of loosh and also referenced the Demiurge which my near death experiencer friend met during his NDE. He wrote, "Military remote viewer Joe McMoneagle went to the Monroe Institute and was asked to view the origins of the Earth. Basically, he saw something very similar.
He saw a demiurge who created the world. Our planet was a sort of Petri dish to generate an energy that Robert Monroe calls "Loosh". Loosh occurs naturally in small pockets of the universe, and tons of different entities and races seem to like it like a drug. The particular demiurge who created the Earth was trying to harvest Loosh synthetically. He noted that it would be generated when his simple creations experienced pain or stress. That was with single-celled organisms. The yield was small, so he amped up the production by creating more complex creatures like plants. It was still a modest crop. So he decided to make moving plants, so that they could consume each other. Thus he formed insects.

Long story short, by slow stages he created more and more complex creatures because he noticed that, with their higher consciousness-level, more Loosh would be generated when they experienced terror, fear, aggressive, hyper-sexuality, etc.
McMoneagle describes the moment when primitive proto-humans observed the demiurge. They dropped to their knees to worship it with tears in their eyes. The demiurge was taken aback. (Evidently, it never thought of itself as a god. Nor did it solicit this reaction. In fact, it was quite puzzled by it.)
At any rate, this concept of entities harvesting energy from us comes up again in a book by Nick Redfern called "Final Events". It's non-fiction and has real CIA documents. There's a group within the CIA, called the Collins Elite, who tracks this stuff. It's terrifying because these hard-boiled, no-nonsense CIA spooks believe that we're not the planet's top species. That in fact we're being harvested for an energy we produce.
Like McMoneagle, they say that the energy is amped up when we succumb to aggression, fear, perverted sexuality.
They said that our society is being gamed, manipulated. Humans are being flooded with subliminal programming to act out in these ways . . . to embrace grievance, riots, transgenderism, etc. Because it all produced Loosh.
It's funny how the military remote viewers, the CIA, the Gnostics and the guy who had this Near Death experience all seem to be seeing something very similar.

Footnote: McMoneagle saw something intriguing: He watched as our evolution was being manipulated remotely. The demiurge used the sun. McMoneagle looked on in wonder as its color changed, as its frequency was altered. It went from white to a vague yellowish. As it changed in hue, he watched species being mutated on Earth (completely unaware of the effect of the vibrational frequency they were being subjected to). I say this because of a recent freaky change in the resonance of the Earth [called Schumann Resonance]. Since forever, it's been at 7.8 Herz. The Russians were perplexed when it jumped up to 9 Herz recently. Then 16. It now stands at 32 HZ. Scientists all around the world are quietly freaking out because they don't know what's causing it. To follow McMoneagle's logic, it may be a sign that Forces Outside of Ourselves are manipulating us remotely.​"end-quote

I tried buying the book by Joe McMoneagle, He thinks it's in his book The Ultimate Time Machine. Wouldn't you know the book got lost in the mail and I'll have to reorder it. If anyone has the book please send me what he says about the Demiurge.

I was reading up on how spiders use pheromones here on Earth.... I wonder if there could be some kind of pheromone/chemical equivalent in the astral realm that is used... probably not, probably just the feeling of connectedness and being free from the physical but it does make me wonder.

Spiders use pheromones to communicate:

They can use the pheromones to lure others into their nets:

Pheromones are involved with feelings of love:

I wonder if something like that could exist in the astral since they almost seem blissed out on the love or ephoria like a druggie.

ALIEN ABDUCTIONS and the Similarities to NDES

There is a connection between near death experiences and alien abductons. Abductions often include the experiencer being taken up into a beam of light and alien beings can appear as light and send feelings of love. I believe the aliens are astral based and are able to shape shift. There are a few dozens experiences on NDERF.org where aliens were mentioned including this one.

Ruth: "I was taken to special entities who looked like the usual grays, but they had lots of wrinkles on their faces. They called themselves the Counsel, and said they were part of a group called "soul recyclers" helping souls to re-incarnate. "

James N: "I was taken to see a worm working controls of big cylinders that had every animal and peoples you could think of...and they were going down the cylinders from adults to babies....Fish also....I remember seeing all kinds of fish....As I was walking towards the worm I heard a voice say....you go back and be a better man..I was told by many the light was the creator/god....and the worm was a angel giving rebirth.. " end-quote

[SHAPE-SHIFTING ARCHONS -- A very interesting phenomenon is that at least a dozen or more said that the Light being was able to shape shift into any form it desires. They claim to do this in order to comfort the soul, but still could be construed on one level as deceptive in nature.

Andrew C: .. an inquiry to me as to which religious symbolic form I wanted the presence to appear in, a few options, then my image of Jesus Christ in a blue robe appeared.

Robert B: I saw the Light approach, I was enveloped by the light and an entity that was to prepare me for what I call my Interview with a supreme being later in the Light. This first being appeared to be the Virgin Mary. Only after asking, "Are you truly the Virgin Mary it instantly manifested true identity. I was nearly paralyzed with fear until again asking "please, what is happening to me what is going on here?"

Kathi B: So the thoughts came into my head: what kind of form or shape would make you most comfortable. ―What do you mean?‖ I thought back. Some require me to take the shape of a wise old man, others a woman and still others an animal, all of different races, ages, sizes or species. What about you? I thought without hesitation ―Human." With that the light began to simultaneously separate into amazing rays of color and intensify into a more solid form. Once the light reached the stage where it looked like a human form, a rather generic looking cookie cutter shape, like a gingerbread man, I thought, ―That is enough, I am comfortable with this form."

Natalie S: The personalities were non-physical in essence, taking on form if they intended to do that for a particular purpose. I perceived the way they looked according to what I preferred for my purposes. -- end-quote

Stephen C: I didn't mention it before, but beings of the 'other' side, take a 'physical' form so that our conscious minds can understand

Lonny F: I was spoken to immediately and made aware of a presence. After we agreed that I would see him in physical form, he appeared. I think that having me make the decision to communicate with him, instead of him just appearing in front of me, was more for my comfort than anything else.

Hugo HSR: They seek you as if they were a good spirit, but they are not, because when they arrive near you they assume a shape that is frightening.... Tunnel without end, and in the distance it seems to be a blue light calling you for the good, but when you accept death it controls you through your eyes. When they are near you the tunnel becomes a sparkling red.

Kiko M: I examined the ditch carefully, then as I looked onto the other side of the ditch that's when shapes started to take form. I saw these black creatures that could shape shift from small to large and vice versa. I was aware that this was not a good place to be. It was like watching a stage play but with real demonic creatures.

Robert B: I was told that I was there for 7 years and that each person would see only what they could understand when they came to her. Some would see her as Jesus some their fathers or moms every imaginable deity as well.

CS: I believe that they appeared to me (or I perceived them) in a form that I would understand at the time." end-quote

This last one is a non-NDE quote from the www.alienresistance.org web site: "Although I never saw them as aliens they did appear as monsters, clowns, friends (that i didnt recognize but thought they were) and even lovers. So when I heard about alien abductions it wasnt hard for me to connect the dots that if they can appear as clowns an alien isnt much different." endquote]

The grey aliens have been seen by at least a dozen near death experiencers, but keep in mind the beings can most likely take any form they desire.

Val Valerian in his Matrix book series writes, "It is they [Grey aliens] who await in the light when a human being dies. The human being is then recycled into another body and the process begins all over again... Hence the Light and Tunnel at death Trap. Scanning someone they wish to recycle as they near death, the aliens discover who the person was close to has died. They project the person(s) image in the white light tunnel and the image waves you in deeper. If you CHOOSE to follow you can be trapped and sent to another incarnation of their choice... these entities view Earth as a big farm."

Alien reseacher Linda Moulton-Howe said the preying mantis aliens claim to be in charge of our spiritual evolution. Linda also stated, "...if the recycling of souls is the machinery in this universe, one could argue philosophically that entropy in this universe was designed so that there would be a recycling of souls to grow and strengthen and evolve."

A year after writing her book "Masquerade of Angels" the phenomenal abduction researcher Dr. Karla Turner in her last public lecture on the alien abductors stated: "The entities deliberately deceive us in their interactions with us. This is the number one fact that has emerged from my research into this field. If I am able to leave you with only that one message: 'that we are being deceived in many ways by these interactions' then I will be happy with my work today."

Dr. Karla Turner: "Aliens show a mysterious interest in the human soul... a young girl whom the aliens asked if they could borrow her soul... Two different abductees, totally isolated from each other... it happened to both come from the St. Louis area, both shown at the age of five a gigantic, metallic, spherical object somewhere in space and were told in essence it was the soul recycling center... a man who watched as his young body was killed and his soul energy released, captured in a container and taken to a new replacement body where it was reintroduced to the body through the technology of the little black box you might have heard about in some of these cases."

During a 8-28-1994 appearance on Art Bell's Coast to Coast A.M. radio show she speculated on the nature of the aliens' purpose for interacting with humans: "My best opinion is that it is some form, metaphorically speaking, of farming, that we have some source for something, qualities of physical materials, our energetic energy patterns, I have no idea... We might find that they could be considered more correctly perhaps 'interloping farmers' in the way that we as a species has taken over wild animals time and again and domesticated them, and genetically altered them for our benefit..."

ALIENS even APPEAR AS LIGHT sometimes.

In hypnotherapist Edith Fiore's book "Encounters". One of her case studies, Sherry, was taken up into a craft in a beam of light and under hypnosis recalled: "It seems like I see a flash of light. I feel this pulsating pulling kind of sensation... It seems like there's some kind of form that seems to be mostly light. I feel kind of frightened... It's pretty scary. The one thing that I do see is that the eyes are very caring and loving. The face I saw is gone. It was more amphibian like than anything else... I feel like they're... it's like light, some kind of light that's making me calm. It's calming. It seems to be emanating from whoever's around me. I just get feelings of love... it seems like they only want me to remember them as light."

This is from an abduction account of Betty Andreasson Luca from Raymond Fowler's book The Watchers II: "Oh, we're running toward the light now. Oh-h-h! [breathless] I can see . . . the Elder is changing to a white light being and . . . the grey is changing into a light blue one [blows out air] as we're running closer to the light.
Oh, I'm starting to change into a golden colored light! Oh, this is beautiful! Oh-h-h. [long sigh, exhales, sighs again] Oh, this is wonderful, wonderful, wonderful. Oh, there is such love. [Betty is in pure unadulterated ecstasy.] Oh, there is such peace. [long sigh] I'm just engulfed in light and blending into that light. Oh! [. . .] It is just fantastically beautiful. It's just so much love, so much peace and so wonderful." -- end-quote

Truman Cash is an abductee who had an experience with the white light tunnel and alien beings.

TRUMAN wrote,
"After I was thoroughly inculcated in this WHITE LIGHT amnesia room, two insectoids approached me and told me that I was ready to begin my new life. I saw that foggy LIGHT. I hear a voice say 'Go to the LIGHT, ' and I go to the LIGHT.........
The phrase "Go to the LIGHT. " It's an implant station. " Okay. I'm going into a big, huge sphere, space station. I'm going through a tunnel of LIGHT. At the end of the tunnel is this room-and a body--with intense LIGHT& power that just presses and pushes on me, forces me into this body. I can feel the body now, as it (the force field) pushes me in. ..
They tricked me. They put me in a capsule and shoot it out of the . . . uh, shoot it out to a planet......"
This LIGHT goes to this implant station that's just huge. Reminds me of a small planet or moon. .Don't go to the LIGHT. I was right about that... The New Age LIGHT. It's part of the trap. "
"... I can see why people are drawn to it. It's like taking a vacation, milling around in the WHITE LIGHT. There's no pain there. You're being programmed to be a sheep. You aren't exposed to stuff. There are other parts of the ship where you are rammed into bodies with force beams. " (It's like a soul-sucking tractor beam.)
"It just sucks you in. ... At first I thought they were LIGHT BEINGS. These are the praying mantis guys! They take me into the WHITE, misty LIGHT. I'm being programmed (to): .... 'ALWAYS RETURN TO THE LIGHT. ' I can see why people think going to the LIGHT is good, because it FEELS good. ....
You feel like you're really loved, and you're really special. ", '...Their programming is very sweet, but very insincere and phony.... "It appears that electromagnetics plays a key role in this procedure. I suddenly realized that they were using the nervous system of the body-including the brain, of course-to implant beings into bodies. The nerves transmit electrical charges, which creates electromagnetic fields around the body. The chakras are simply nerve networks, which create electromagnetic fields." end-quote


Shadow beings are seen in some near death experiences as are hooded beings.
Hundreds and hundreds if not thousands of stories involving shadow beings can be read on websites like yourghoststories.com. There were over two dozen accounts of NDEs involving shadow beings on nderf.org. They are often seen leaning over a bed, whispering to a sleeping person.

The television show "Paranormal Witness" did an episode on hospital hauntings and the angel of death also known as the Grim Reaper. One hospice worker on the show said: "Every nurse has a story I know that I saw the Angel of Death. In front of me. I'll swear on a stack of Bibles We keep this stuff to ourselves. Because we're risking a lot. People aren't going to pick a hospital where people are talking about seeing all kinds of weird things happening." endquote

The Swiss psychologist Carl Jung wrote about archetypes, including what he called The Shadow Archetype. I do think we need to acknowledge the shadow beings and accept them as a part of our reality. We should also take ownership that we, as perhaps the collective Sophia, contributed to their reality and need to transmute the shadow into light.

Patrick, a listener who emailed me: "i actually exited this whole thing one night and found myself in a flat room with the whole universe contained within a white orbish thing sitting on a pedestal and a window that reached out into hyperspace..." re: exit - i was doing some meditations and realized the chakra system that the new age tells u to "tune into" is used by the higher self which is in fact the archon/demiurge to feed off of us - the personal anchoring system to be here and come back...i started to pulse the energy outwards one by one...and then when all seven of em were pulsing out, it spontaneously happened.. part of the challenge here is to go into the demiurge/higher self personal rep and merge with it, love it and grow through/out of it and enclose it within your being...i accomplished this...that night and popped out in that room...i busted out a giant buddha laugh....I came to see that the ultimate graduation test is growing more powerful than 'that' aspect of ourselves which is unconsious and out of touch with the whole...

i've also been inside the "control room" if u will of the higher self/archon control system - its like the architect scene with neo in the matrix with all the incarnations on the screens...i traveled through the "silver cord" to get there...from there is how i popped out into that room i mentioned earlier...it ties into the end of the 2001 space odyssey scene in the white room...it was quite unique though b/c the room was two dimensional but its was expressed hyperdimensionally is the best way to explain it"


I would like to share some of the conclusions out of body researcher William Buhlman has come to. He has had many out of body experiences himself and conducted a survey of over 16,000 people who have experienced astral travel.

He wrote, "It's important to learn how to consciously move and lock your awareness within any individual energy environment. You unknowingly did this when you entered the first nonphysical reality immediately after your death. When you embraced this construct and accepted it as your own, you became one with it. In doing so, you unconsciously locked yourself in a structured consensus-thought matrix created by a group of like-minded souls."

"To become an effective spiritual traveler You must learn how to shift your state of awareness without becoming attached to the energies that dominate a given reality." The key is to
completely focus, know and flow. It's essential to lock your awareness into a specific energy environment or your perception will become unstable. This skill is critical when you are attempting multiple reality jumps."

"Yes, all of these things are your projections. Now can see how easy it is for untrained souls to become completely trapped within their own thought forms. This is a common problem for billions of souls dwelling in the physical and astral projections. Few souls are aware of the creative power of their own thoughts. The self-created manifestations of forms make for convincing illusions in all dimensions; many humans remain imprisoned in this labyrinth of the mind"

"Many people are relieved and overjoyed to discover that they really do continue to exist after death and, as a result, gladly accept the first nonphysical reality they experience as their 'new spiritual home'...
However there is one very serious problem with this comforting scenario that few are aware of and no one addresses. You have just accepted and adapted to a thought consensus environment on the astral plane. You have just accepted a reflection of spirit instead of the true essence of it. You have done what billions have done before you. You have merged your consciousness with a nonphysical reality far from your true spiritual home.
By doing so you essentially guarantee the continuation of your form-based existence and your reincarnation. "

"I am often asked what I will do when I take my final breath. My answer is this: 'I will demand to experience my higher self, my spiritual essence!' I am not content to simply 'go to the light'. I am not content to accept past acquaintances and comfortable surroundings as my new reality.
In fact, I am not content to settle for any form-based reality as my spiritual home. I absolutely know there is so much more available beyond the realms of form. There exist dimensions of magnificent living light simply waiting for us; all we need do is awaken and accept their reality. Two powerful truths are apparent.
First, all form is but a reflection of pure spirit.
Second, we are not helpless victims of an external force that dictates or directs our reality and our lives; we are bestowed with the power of free will and the ability to take spiritual action. Why would you settle for a pale reflection of reality when the pure realms of spirit are always present? "

"Our spiritual growth and evolution are directly related to our ability to navigate the multidimensional path within us."

"We must conquer our personal addictions and attachments, for these are the anchors that hold us to the destiny of form and matter." end-quote


It is possible to wake up and become aware we are living in a matrix or false construct and many people are doing just that.

However, the true Supraconsciousness of our Soul is artificially held down and regulated by the brain. There is a governor or regulator in our brain which keeps the frequency from going higher and helps to keep us dumbed down and asleep.

There are five categories of brain wave states which range from delta waves at 0 HZ to theta,alpha, beta all the way to gamma waves at 100 HZ associated with peak focus or concentration, insight and expanded consciousness.

NDEs reveal that a soul sheds its physical body and lower animal everyday normal waking consciousness or ego and experiences the afterlife with the true expanded consciousness or awareness of its soul which is described as pure consciousness.

Souls experience this state of superconsciousness whether they go to the light or not. I have talked to NDErs who felt the love and they never even went through the tunnel or entered the light. It is the natural state of our Soul and being free from the physical body which is yoked to an animal brain and Counterfeit Spirit.

Mathilde M: "I was this refined, sublime consciousness. "

Jeff C: "it is a self identity separate from consciousness...more like a super consciousness."

Nancy H: "Although my body looked unconscious, my mind/spirit was hyper-aware. "

Victor C who had a transformative spiritual experience: "what I experienced was the passing through of the space between my thoughts, which led me from the state of consciousness that comes with being in my body to the state of infinite awareness that lies behind consciousness, a state in which the body, consciousness, and all other attachments are surrendered and seemingly left behind. "

Ultimately, waking up is the first step to exiting the matrix. After all, one has to be aware they are free or they will remain a prisoner to their own ignorance.

The importance of frequency with respect to Consciousness can be seen when we go to sleep at night. The average person probably has several dreams every night... but then whenever we decide that we have had enough dreams or have slept enough or the alarm rings and we decide we have to go to work, we wake up or raise our consciousness to where we are aware or conscious. We dream at night and then wake up to a more real reality.


It's all about frequency and intent. The great scientist Nikola Tesla said, "If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration."

I received an email from a woman who wrote, "I am very engaged in reading your article on the white light trap... I have been reviewing your article on and off for the past year - It changed my perspective on the afterlife immensely. Last year, I had a serious accident . I was in and out of a coma for days having spent two weeks in the intensive care unit. One thing I do remember is when I lost consciousness , plunging into total darkness; no bright light, no deceased family members... As the months passed by, a feeling of absolute love and peace would resonate from within me - still does. Strangers seem to be curious about me. At night, as I am drifting to sleep, internally, my head will start to glow...
I had read your article months before my accident, and so in essence it stayed with me. As I am lying on my hospital bed, I had momentary lucid thoughts which were: not to project any expectations of angels, guides,...etc. I was not going to be lied to which is why I am guessing the immersion into the void. Once I started to regain lucidity, one of the nurses confessed to me that she would often come into my room when I was unconsciousness because she said the room would fill with a feeling of peacefulness. This woman then went out of her way to take such loving care of me.
At times, this divine love within me is so intense I sometimes burst into tears...My happiest moments are spent in solitude, at peace. " end-quote

If near death experiencers are correct, then when we die we could potentially create our own reality and can travel by thought or intent. Unfortunately, other entities may try to usurp our Sovereignty or free will, and trick us into doing their will and willingly give them our energy. One could decide to go to darkness or a void and stop relying on external sources and rely on one's own inner light to manifest reality. This could be disastrous if one's thoughts and desires are not pure. One could potentially become another demiurge.

The worst case scenario is go back to "loving" light and get another shot at making your life better... one could negotiate and request to go to a better planet where the lessons are more gentle and there is no diesease, ageing, death, pain, suffering or intolerable jobs.
My friend who had an NDE and met the Demiurge said eventually the Demiurge gives up and there are thousands of years of paradise on earth so you could refuse to reincarnate until that time. If we refuse to go to the light or at least to reincarnate there are no souls to power their system.

Many of you, however, have probably reached the point where you are not easily amused with all the shiny, glittery objects here anymore and are ready to return to true original source.

If you are tired of the unending drama that a life on Earth in a physical body presents then you can dissolve your attachments and ties to this world. To do this it may be necessary to learn not to judge others, or hold grudges or anger toward others, and to practice forgiveness of ourselvesand others. To do this it might be helpful for one to renounce the world and all its physical lures so as to break our addiction to the human experience.

Detachment from our Avatar

Attachment to this earth game can hold us back from leaving. We are like junkies.
One must be very careful to not fall for the trap of agreeing to come back to earth to save the world as a hero or savior figure. For you to agree to come here to be a hero requires a great number of souls to agree to come here in need of being saved and must suffer... just so that we can be a savior or hero. One must be content with leaving this world behind forever knowing that there are higher realms which are far better where there is no suffering. Each soul must come to that realization on their own in due time.

There are higher planes and we should not be content with going to the first external light we see. Mellen-Thomas Benedict went to a light beyond the first light and Nder named David went through seven planes where each light was a million times brighter than the previous ones. During ascension one will likely go through what may seem like a series of wormholes as there are multiple planes or dimensions. No pun intended but one must have tunnel vision and ignore any enticing or frightening distractions that are just manipulated illusions or projections. Consciousness is a projector which the archons can hack.

Yeah, we are temporarily trapped here on Earth by the electromagnetic prison, but at death it is a matter of redirecting our attention back inwards toward our true divine light source within which is back at the Eternal Light Realms. It is analogous to a rubber band being extended or stretched outward but then snapping back to its original natural resting position.

We are everywhere at once. It is simply an issue of where we choose to focus our attention. We can focus it on the illusions and projections of the archons/shadow beings and the denser, darker physical plane or we can ignore the illusions and focus our attention on our true divine light source which is at the Eternal Light Realms and where the Ineffable Father or Source is at.

There is an emotional plane, a mental plane, a plane where we can exist as a point of consciousness or maybe even planes above that where we can exist as pure energy or awareness beyond the need for thought?

If one is ready to move on and leave all the drama of the lower planes behind then here is the solution I prefer. I agree with what Tesla said and I believe the universe is composed of frequency. In my opinion one needs to leave the physical and astral planes behind completely. So my suggestion is at death one can raise the vibrational level or frequency of the spirit which is light. The key seems to be that energy flows where attention goes so keep focusing your Consciousness and Attention on increasing your frequency back to the center. Just keep increasing the vibration of your soul as much as you possibly can by using your focused
willful intent. You could use a sort of mantra at death: "higher frequency now, [higher frequency now.].. move inward"... just keep increasing your soul's vibration or frequency until you arrive at the Highest Frequency which may manifest as the purest Light, the Absolute Truth, and Unconditional Love.

I know life is hard for many of you listening. Try to keep in mind that it is only a temporary situation. Happiness is a choice. We can decide to be happy andcntent with what we are experiencing here in the world and be appreciative and grateful for all the little things we have and the good people that are in our lives.

Life can at times seem to take forever, but one day we will take our last breath and die. So each day we are one day closer to freedom and liberation and going home.... it is important to be ready for that day. Practice inner silence to keep the entities at bay. Ignore the negativity and focus on the positives.

Keep raising your frequency as high as possible..... it is important to practice spiritual alchemy to keep attachments and residue from weighing our souls down. Practice love and kindness. Be loving, gentle, peacemakers, merciful, and compassionate. Minister unto the poor and sick and afflicted. Renounce all things of the world. We should be IN the world but not OF the world.

Meditate daily upon "ascension" to keep your focus and intent sharp so that it will be automatic when the time comes.

The Light souls see is of a varying intensity based upon their level of spiritual attainment or heart's purity so when we raise our frequency using a mantra or willful focused intent it should be done both mentally and perhaps also using a pure emotion.  That pure emotion may have a lot of power behind it.  The formula is Gnosis + a Pure Heart + WILL POWER, that is a strong will or will power, courage, a "focused, willful intent". We need to concentrate hard and have a laser-like focus and ignore external projections or distractions that are based in fear. Physical addictions and emotonal attachments to the world hinder or impede our progress.

The movie The Wizard of Oz essentially contains the formula for how to escape this matrix and return home.

The light of the NDE is past the tunnel, represented in the movie by the tornado vortex, over the rainbow which is all the colors seen in the tunnel and in the emerald city (a crystal city is seen in some NDEs). The characters and attributes of the Tin Man, Lion, Scarecrow etc represent the redemption of those lacking in some essential quality, ultimately being restored and causing their life to be almost reborn.

The Scarecrow needed a brain to acquire knowledge/Gnosis. The Cowardly Lion needed courage or Will to overcome fear. The Tin Man needed a heart. Dorothy representing the Consciousness being immersed, had to kill the evil witch, her Ego/Counterfeit Spirit, to progress. The Good Witch was the Enlightened Afterthought propelling us onward.

The Wizard, the frail old man behind the curtain running the show, is the Demiurge, seemingly all fierce but really nothing in essence: "pay no attention to that man behind the curtain."

I like the analogy of Dorothy going through the vortex tunnel, over the rainbow of color, and into the dreamworld (astral) and the demiurge wizard using tricks and deception to run the crystal city of light...very similar to NDES.... the lyrics even say to "step into the light" before they enter the emerald city.

And then Dorothy repeating a mantra ("there's no place like home")/focused intent to wake up from the dream and return back home. The ruby slippers represent the "inner spark" within all of us. When Glinda instructs Dorothy never to take off the ruby slippers, she is telling Dorothy never to lose her inner spark.

Glinda the Good witch tells Dorothy, "You don’t need to be helped any longer. You've always had the power". This is the key component of Gnosticism, that the soul is a divine spark and has the Light Power within.
The formula for how to exit the matrix is repeating over and over again a mantra like "There's no place like home. There's no place like home." Except my mantra will be 'Move inward. Higher frequency now. Higher frequency now. Higher frequency now". I will repeat that over and over until I am back home again.

I really enjoy hearing from people about their thoughts and any experiences they may have had.
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